ROGER'S FIT

Yesterday evening our crew were finally able to get some clarity about our next move. We were able to book the flights and the accommodations for one month. At least now we have a place to go and where to stay. When we get to our destination, it is easier to go with the flow again.

For most of these two months, I have been quite calm and relaxed even though it seemed that we just can not get any answers. Until yesterday I realized that I had put unrealistic expectations on the shoulders of the Universe. Like the Universe is the one who is supposed to bring something magical in front of me. Well, anything in this life is possible for sure, but I understood at the same time, that reading too many writings of others and watching too closely on how their life unfolds, you start to compare yourself to them. I feel like this is an automatic system for me. It just happens without me even realizing it. I can now clearly see the danger of the social media. Sometimes, specially when you in front of big decisions, it is maybe better to close them off.

Yesterday evening, I thank god, was dropped again, back to the earth and back to the fact that this is my life and that it is my responsibility. I don't have to create expectations towards me or how things should have unfold. This time the decision was difficult, because the destination is far different, than what Roger (my ego) had imagined to us. And as I booked the flights yesterday.... Oh my. For the first few moments, our crew were kind of numb. Feeling like, "what ever". But then Roger got crazy!!

OMG! For a while now he has been in our team and very calm and cool. He has been supporting me big time and I have felt so safe. But now, it is like his whole world got shattered! He went nuts!

"What the hell are you thinking", he was shouting at me. "How the hell do you think that this decision will ever move you forward?! You are fat! You are old! Where are you going to have your morning coffee? Where are you going to wash you clothes? How the hell are you going to live? Do you think that the money will fall from the sky? Why is it so difficult for you to just get settled somewhere and have a solid, normal life? What in god's name is this decision going to bring to you?" And on, and on, and on, and on.....

Our crew have to give credit to him though. He has such an imagination! He came up with things, that we could have never ever even think about! And his out burst is still going on?! He has been shouting now for almost 24 hours! Respect :o) !!!!!

Of cause, his out burst is hard on my body. I feel symptoms like panic attack, anxiety and huuuuuge fear! But our team has learned that it is better for him to "empty his balloon" instead of trying to interfere to his process. So I keep on breathing, in and out. I go for a walk and let him talk. I come in, do the dishes and let him talk. "Keep it coming, keep it coming, let it all out! What else, what else?", I say to him. And he finds yet another 10 reasons why we shouldn't take this leap of faith.

"Do you see no love, how all the old programming is coming out?", asks Victoria (my higher self). Oh yes, I sure do! I come from a family and society where drama and negativity was the main way of looking at things. "Always expect the worst! Nothing in life comes easy! You have to fight for your living! Do as you are told! Hard work pays off! Life is a suffering! Do not enjoy too much, because next minute something bad will happen! Hide your happiness! Don't tell anyone about your good luck or you will loose it! Don't think too much of yourself!" Oh my! Do you see now what I have to put up with for 24 hours?!

But if I am honest, I have learned to respect these bursts of Roger's. This means that self love is making more space inside of me and as Roger is shouting these old programmings out, bit by bit, I start to feel lighter. The old darkness is falling away. The old beliefs that have been keeping me small.

"It is like..... Well, when Roger is acting like this, it is like he is doing the inner cleansing with a huge vacuum cleaner", laughs Cynthia (my god fairy). "And I have to say, that now he is really doing a thorough job!" I have to agree!

"This is normal reaction of his, because first of all, he wants to keep you safe. So for him, it would be easier if we would just stay where we are without changing anything. This is what he knows, so his job of protecting you, would be so much easier. The second thing is, that we are so used to being trapped into the old beliefs, that Roger gets very scared when he knows, that we are heading towards freedom. As crazy as it sounds, for most, freedom is very scary. So it is for him. We all want it, but when it actually is offered to you, for some, it is impossible to grab to this kind of opportunity", says Victoria.

"Freedom is something that we are not used to. We are used to other telling us how to be and how to act. If and when you decide to step into a more free life, you need to be able to leave everything outside of you and only listen to yourself. This means take responsibility. Until taking responsibility of you life becomes normal state of being, it takes practice and for sure, the Universe will deliver all kinds of tools (people and events) to test your commitment to you own freedom. This is why it is easier to stay in the "normal" way of living, because then you don't have to do this. You can only truly be free, when you step fully into your own power. Not what others think you should be or do and not put it in Universe's shoulders either."

"So Roger is scared as hell, because the more we start to take responsibility of our lives, the more freedom we get. The more we practice this, the more "jobless" he gets. Well, not jobless. It is just that the job description changes for him. And as we know, change is always scary", continues Victoria.

So we allow Roger to talk. Let him rage and shout. Now we all see this as a blessing, not a curse. "And we have to remember, that he is also practicing surrendering. And he must fall into his old habits as do we. So no one is perfect. And this is what life is all about. Learning. It is like in school. You can not learn to write within one day, but by practicing this new skill", says Cynthia.

We can see that he is getting calmer now, minute after minute. As he gets our unconditional love, it is like the air is blown out from his balloon. Finally he comes to sit next to me, he takes my hand and sits there quietly. I hold his hand and I wait.

"I am so sorry. I don't know why I am so scared. I love you so much and I just want to keep you safe. As I am saying all these things, I feel terrible! I know they are not true! You are not ugly or old! You are one of the most beautiful souls I know! So I am sorry....", Roger says crestfallen. I kiss him on the cheek and I tell him that I love him. I assure him, that with our strong team, we will be fine.

"And what if, just what if, we could start to learn, that things can flow to us easily? That life don't have to be suffering? That we learn to accept things as they come and we actually learn more and more to enjoy life's smallest things?, I ask him.

We all sit quiet. We all agree. This is where we are now as a team. Learning new ways of being. Still getting scared when big changes are around the corner. But we are strong. And we will make it. And now, as a team, we agree, that we will do our level best to enjoy this last week in this apartment. Very soon we are surrounded by people and action and it feels so very good! But for now, we will enjoy our dance and yoga practices here in our small house and in our own privacy. Just a few days more.

PRACTICING TRUST AND "THE NOW"

I have known for almost two months now that I am leaving my old house. Maybe my old home town. Maybe Finland, my home country. The weird thing is, that the answer to the question "where am I going", is not coming. Less then a week and my house has to be empty and I have to be out of here. But where am I supposed to go?

It seems that the collective theme for the last few weeks has been about "going with the flow" without forcing anything, being flexible, staying in the present moment and just trust, have faith, that everything will be sorted out. Nothing to worry. But still, I wanted to gather my crew to have a chat about this.

"I never knew, when letting the house go, that I would be in this position at this time. I was sure, that by now, I would already have a clear plan where and what. But it seems that nothing resonates, nothing is calling me. It is like there is no place in this earth that would feel like home", I say to my crew. "This doesn't make me sad, but it makes me curious. Where will I be taken to?"

"Are you questioning your decision of letting the house go?" Victoria (my higher self) is asking. "No, not at all. This is actually the only thing at this very moment I am sure about", I laugh.

But Roger (my ego) was not going to settle for this. He was the one who wanted to make a plan. So together we decided to make one just to keep him happy. For three days we went through different options where to go, because at that point, he wanted to go somewhere abroad. I have to say, that this was a bit of a struggle, because we didn't wait for the right time. Instead we "were forcing" a solution, just to make Roger happy. I did feel this in my whole body to be honest! Uh, old ways.... Heavy!

Anyway, this is what we did and thank god we have friends all over the world, so there were plenty of options. So me and Roger, we chose one and we were able to book an apartment. This was a time where "I fell into my old ways" and I end up asking advises from my friends. Big decisions like this are hard to make by your self! "And specially if you are forcing it", I laugh. So the suggestions of my friends, just made me more confused, because as we know, me and my crew are the only ones who can know what is best for us. This is the process of leaving the old ways and learning the new. A process my team is in and this is why we allow everything and don't deny anything. We have to allow ourselves to "bang our heard's to the wall" as many times as is needed in order to let the old ways go.

So just to keep Roger quiet and relaxed, we made a plan knowing all along, that it is meant to be left open. So yes to the accommodation, but no to the flights. We have to keep ourselves open for changes and fast movement. Yes, I have been packing the stuff in the house, so I am prepaid that way. It is just the clothes and few minor things that are hard to pack as I am not sure where I am going. So now I am practicing staying "in the now". All I know at the moment is, that I am here, soon to be my ex apartment and writing this text.

"Victoria, what is going on?" I ask her. "Well love", she says. "You are now learning to trust the divine flow and the divine timing. You are learning how to live in the moment and how to enjoy it, instead of stressing about it. It was a very clever thing, that you allowed Roger to have a plan, because he is also learning these new skills. It is not easy for you and for sure it is not easy to him", she laughs. "There are pieces in this Universal puzzle that are not aligned yet and this is why things seem to be unclear. But all is taken care of and I will tell you as soon as I get the info. All you have to do, is relax and trust."

Oh, I knew she is going to say this. And the truth is, that I am relaxed. There was a incident this week, that shook Roger for a bit. He got upset, irritated and disappointed. So I allowed him to feel this, but to my surprise, it didn't last that long. "In the old days", this process would have taken him days, but now, within an hour, we were back in balance. "We are so proud of you Roger", we all tell him.

He is smiling and says "Thank you guys! I am practicing, for sure. But I am committed to this new way of being with all of you and so I am doing my level best to adapt this." This is true. I am so proud of him. We allow him to practice by accepting and loving him fully as he is going through this transformation. We love him, as he loves us and we know that he has committed himself for this new way because he wants to be part of our team, not fight against us. Sometimes this requires compromising.

And so we keep going with the flow. I keep on practicing this "staying in the moment" and trusting and to my surprise, now that Roger is on board, it is quite natural for me. Even if our balance is shaken up by something outside of us, I bounce back to my center so fast! And I am content again. I just don't stress. Quite opposite, I am excited! I accept the situations and the days as they come and well, that's it. Who would have known that former completer and control freak could live like this?!

"Can you see now love, how well you are protected by the spirit?" asks Victoria. "You are in your safe cocoon where you can practice these new skills in your own pace, without any distractions. You are now creating a base for your new way of living and being. Nothing is solid, because this is not how your life was meant to be. You chose to be here at this time and break all the old beliefs about how we are supposed to live our lives. Staying in the same job or living in the same house for all your life. And this is totally fine, of cause, if this is someones soul path, but it is not yours. You are meant to flow. You had this two months time to get stronger inside, before we send you out in to the world. And remember, that world is Finland too! This say this just so you understand that any destination is as good as another. I have this feeling that we are not going to stay in Finland, but I can not say anything solid yet."

"But can you see love, how all this time after new year, has been given to you as a gift, so that you can see what is it that you no longer want in you life. You are releasing so much old stuff, but you can not feel or see it yet. But it is happening. Now you are so solid in your own truth without caring what others say. This is what is needed from you as a leader. Because leader you are. Leader of new ways."

"When we have been stuck in the old ways of being for so long, it is necessary that when we start something new, it goes to the extreme. It is the only way to keep the balance for a while. But as more and more people adapt and tap into the new energy, the opposites don't have to be so far away from each other. You understand? Good example of this is that for the longest time, we have been living in such a hard, masculine world where our souls and spirit where totally forgotten. Too much violence and bad things happening. So to even the energetic scale, so to say, came spirituality, femininity, softness and it went "over board". Or this is how some humans see it. But it had to be this way, so the energetic balance was kept on earth. This is what is happening now too with this flow, trust and living in a moment. Some humans, like you love, you are the strongest ones to take this to the extreme. We need this for a while, but eventually, there will be a middle ground and living like this or at least partly like this, will become natural."

Oh my, I just love her wisdom!!!!!! I love her!!!!! Victoria is the best. Even Roger is quiet, because he knows, this is true. It is true for us, I mean.

I have to say, that I have never been happier. I have never been so content. And I love this process of learning new ways. I love the fact that less and less, Roger gets reactions and even if he does, it doesn't take that long for him to remember, that he is part of our team, part of our flow. It is amazing to see these skills developing so fast. And Victoria is right. Without this time in my own solitude and cocoon, I wouldn't have had the privacy to practice all these new things.

So basically, if you look at our situation outside, all is set for the new. I have sold everything, so I really don't have that much stuff anyway. The few things that I was able to pack, is packed. The rest, I will fix within an hour and I am good to go. We have less than one week. Less than one week and no idea where. And I am loving it! I will know when the time is right and I will be taken to the place where I am needed the most and where I can learn more.

This is my new way of being. No solid ground what so ever. And if this is how I am supposed to live, I am okey with it. No stuff to make my transitions difficult or to make me stay in one place. I know I belong to the world, no matter which part of it. And I know Victoria is holding my hand tightly and guiding me to these unknown waters. Roger is there, Cynthia (my god fairy) is there and all my spirit team is there. So why would I need to worry? I am just creating a solid ground, not from outside in, but from inside out. I am creating my fairy tale every singe minute.

How I feel now, you might ask. I am feeling great! I am ready. Scared a bit, but ready. Excited. So what ever beautiful plans the Universe has for me, bring it on! I deserve all of it!

LEARNING NEW WAYS

These couple of days I have been quite happy. Content, I must say, is a better word than happy. Content. Fulfilled. Peaceful. Joyful. It is not like I haven't been happy or joyful before in my life, but this is something different. It feels different. It is an inner feeling that I have and it has nothing to do with anything outside of me. Outside doesn't matter. It doesn't affect my inner world that much anymore. And less and less all the time. I am already full.

"This is something that I haven't experienced before", I tell my crew. " I wrote about rebirth before here, because I thought, that my healing was done. But few intense days came after that. I mean really intense! But now.... I keep on waiting for that intensity to come, but it is not coming. The process has changed. Now this new energy just gets integrated deeper and deeper. Nothing outside of me haven't changed in anyway, but everything inside of me, has. I am content. And now as I am speaking to you guys, I don't go for happiness, I go for joy. I feel like the energy is totally different, you know. It is like happiness is not enough to describe this. Joy is better. Lighter."

My crew are clapping their hands! We can not believe that we are finally getting some kind of peace into our lives after the healing process. We all feel the difference to what was before and how is it now. This inner filling up that has nothing to do with anything else then us. So this is what unconditional love feels like!

"It is so weird. It is like I can not go for "setting goals" or planning things anymore. All is well here and now and I don't need to know more", I say.

Roger (my ego) is so happy for me. He has finally joined our team and now he is constantly asking me, if I am okay, if there is anything he can do or if I need to hold his hand in order to feel safe. I just love my new Roger! He is so good and kind and now he is playing along with our new way of being.

"Love, now you understand what it means when someone says "happiness doesn't come outside", don't you?", asks Victoria (my higher self). Oh yes, for sure! It is amazing! This feeling is amazing!

If I compare me now to that lady I was, the difference is huge! It might not show outside yet, but the new is here. I haven't bought any new clothes, I haven't got a new car or a new house. I haven't got any more money, I haven't changed the way I dress, I haven't got a plan for the future. I don't have a treasure map in order to manifest anything. I don't sit in meditation or do spells. Mostly I am alone, because this is how I prefer things at the moment. Days just go without any business or agenda. I am so powerful. Now I can feel it myself too and now I am not scared of it. It is like I have this big tiger inside of me. A tiger that is not angry, but gentle. Not violent, but firm. Has empathy for all, but knows her boundaries. Loves everybody, but doesn't take any bullshit. This inner power comes from unconditional love, not ego (sorry Roger) and it feels so totally different. This is so new to me!

I was able to fulfill myself. Now anything that comes on top, is just an extra filling. Like when you make tacos. You can add many fillings inside, but the base is always there.

My crew agrees. Cynthia starts to giggle, because she things that tacos without fillings are tasteless, so she would have used some other example to describe my inner world. "Okey love", I say. "Let's take avocado? It's juicy and nice without anything, but if you put some salt on top or you add it to the salad, it's better. Is this a good one?", I ask her with the smile on my face. "Oh yeah baby, I like this one. Juicy. Oh, I like that word. Love, you are juicy!!!!", she giggles.

The rest of us just, we just roll our eyes on her. She is having a lot of energy today! And this is good. At least one of us is, because the rest of us are quite calm and relaxed today. I need her energy so that I can take my yoga mat later and do my practice. So good for her! Keep it up, babe!

So now me and my crew, we are learning this new way of being. I can not control anything anymore. Victoria is in charge. This allows me to relax and just do me. I don't plan my days, I just see what comes along. I don't have a calendar anymore. I can not plan my future, because I don't know what the Universe has planned for me. Before I was frustrated, now I am excited not to know. I don't want to know, I like surprises! Social media don't seem so important anymore and I don't listen to anyone outside of me anymore. I have left all my gurus, all my books and videos. I am in charge of my own life, so I don't listen to anyone on how I should live my life.

I listen to my crew. I listen to my body. Victoria and the rest of the crew, they will always guide me forward. My body will always tell me what to eat. I don't have to think about it. Now this goes with the flow. I don't plan my exercises. I exercise when my body wants movement and now, I would never ever force it to do something, if she didn't want to. I allow my body to be. I don't have to deny anything from me, because I don't have any beliefs anymore. If I want to chocolate, I will have chocolate. We all looooove chocolate! The difference is that what ever I  do, I CHOOSE to do it. I am very aware of all of my choices.

I don't need people or things. All that I need, will be brought to me in the right time.  I am not attached to tittles, clothes, money, fame, likes in FB or anything anymore. I don't have to exercise to have a six pack, but because it makes me feel good. "If I am totally honest, I feel like Alice in wonderland", I say.

"This is so beautiful", says Victoria. It is amazing how my crew and my body guide me in every moment. I can relax and just enjoy. I used to think that I need to travel or go to a amusement park in order to get my adrenaline highs. Now this comes from "not knowing". I can not know what is around the corner. All I know is that I am content. No more ups and downs. No more outside influences. No more people telling me how or when or what. All the training's and courses. All the one on one sessions. And now, finally, I am content. I am full.

ENERGY SENSITIVE

I have been quite sensitive to energies always. I just haven't quite understood the depth of this and my own reactions when I sense something. Also, I used to think that this was a bad thing, but now I understand, that I have a huge gift! And so as I went through my cleansing process, I also started to understand this part of myself better. And the more I got rid of all the old beliefs and fears, my sensitivity just got more higher. I have also gotten a lot of new qualities that are very interesting to me and I truly enjoy them. I learn as I go along.

We are all sensitives. It is just that, again, we all have our own unique soul path and some can feel these energies better, some those. It doesn't really matter. Some are more aware about this quality, some are not. Either way, it is all as good as the other. 

I think we can all sense the atmosphere in the room when we enter there. This is quite normal. What ever is going on with our human mind, turns into an energy and this energy is the one we can sense. Me and Victoria (my higher self) have been talking about my sensitivity quite a lot. Specially now when it is increasing. 

I didn't always understand why my mood can swing so fast from a very joyful and happy feeling into an anger or frustration. I always blamed myself for being too moody. Now I know that I have always sensed the other persons energy. Not what they were saying or doing, but the unseen and unspoken part. And as an emphatic person, I reacted to this. And this changed my mood very quickly. 

I also always wanted to see people being happy. Because when people around me were happy, it was easier and the most comfortable for me. Then there are no mixed energies in the air. This is why I was a people pleaser. This is why I tried to give advises and directions, so that the person I was with, would feel better. And then I could relax and feel better.

I know what is not said. I sense what is going on under the surface. I know when someone is lying or there is something going on. I sense it, even if I can not put it in words. And before I always blamed myself, that there was something wrong with me. In a working place where I used to felt very okey, suddenly I felt very uncomfortable. I am so happy that I have got to know this part of myself so well. Now I know exactly what to do in every situation. Sometimes I say what I "see and hear", sometimes not. Now I have also learned not always say anything. Even if I sense something, it is not of my business. 

"This is very good", says Victoria. We both smile and hug each other. Roger (my ego) is nodding his head. "The more you dig in, the more you learn about yourself. This is so beautiful! This is why you don't need any outside factors to tell you what is your truth and what is not. It is so wonderful to become your own guru in everything", he says. I have to agree. It is very empowering!

So I sense my guides, I sense the pass away souls, I sense other people's energies and now this quality is so heighten that even if I see a text message or a picture, I can sense that persons emotions. Even sometimes what is going on with them! I now know how different energies feel in my body. This is so weird! But quite wonderful! 

"And this is why you need quite a lot of alone time too! This can sometimes be too much for you, because when ever you are around a lot of people for too long, your senses get tired. You get tired. Loud noises, too much people, small space, crowded shops and so on. This can be too much for you", says Cynthia (my god fairy). This is true, but thank god, now I know it and I know how to deal with it. And also, less and less, other people's energies effect to my moods. Now I know what is going on, so I know how to deal with this. 

Something new is also going on. That is that I can sense the energies pouring to the earth. This is SO new to me! "One night I was out and as I came in, I felt this huge heaviness. Like I would absolutely drop inside the ground. So heavy! And in that moment, I heard some of you (my guides) whispering that this is the new energy grounding to the earth. "Even when I went to bed, I felt like I could sink inside the sofa, I felt so heavy", I am laughing. Victoria is nodding. She knows what I am talking about and she is responsible for this area too. 

"This is a ability that we are still developing with you love", she says. "I am just so happy that we are so connected that you can hear my explanations." Me too, I say to her.

These new energies that are pouring to the earth where the ones that pushed all the darkness out of me. All the fears and beliefs. "This is now happening to everyone at this time", says Victoria. "Things that used to make you happy, don't anymore. People you used to like to hand around with, don't feel that nice anymore. Working place might suddenly start to feel uncomfortable. Things like this. This is all about this new energy doing it's magic", she says smiling. 

"Yes, this is true!", I say. "It happened to me just like that! But now something has shifted."

"Please tell us", says Cynthia. 

"Well, yesterday I felt another energy wave coming to earth. I feel like always when these energy waves come, first I feel light and happy and maybe next day or few days after, I feel tired. Now I don't feel anxiety, anger or frustration anymore." 

"This is true", says Victoria. "Your inner world is now more clean then ever, you are also excepting "what is" and not resisting anything. This is why, you feel the energy, but now, you don't get a reaction as before." This is true.

But me and Roger did have a conversation today about this. For the first time, we agreed and he actually listened me. And did what I wanted him to do. Like I said, yesterday I felt this light energy pouring to earth. Today, I feel like it is being grounded and so I felt tired already in the morning. Even though I slept very well in the night. So after running some errands, I came home and I was so tired that I needed to come to the sofa and have a nap. "That was the time when Roger started to analyze this, isn't it lovie", I ask him.

"Yes", he says with a smile on his face. "I just always want to know what is going on with you".

But for the first time, I asked him to just let things be as they are. No need to analyze. That this is just new energy grounding to earth, we know what's going on and that's all we have to know. And if he wants to help, he could just come close to me, take me into his arms and just allow me to rest there. That would be the most safe place for me. And for the first time ever, this is what he did! 

So I had my nap in Roger's arms with Victoria and Cynthia by my side too and we were just letting the energies flow and ground. And I am so grateful for this! Now we truly are a team, playing the same game. Not against each other, but on the same side! And I have never ever felt more safe in my life! Amazing! 

And this is my safety crew. This is my safety harbour where I can get to know my new energy sensitivities in peace and feeling safe. As hard as it has been for me to learn these new things, it surely has been hard to Roger too. But now we are in the same page. This is big! 

So big and new things are happening to our little crew, but we flow one moment at the time. 

GOING WITH THE FLOW

Today I wanted to gather my crew with me to talk about this saying: "Just go with the flow". There are so many quotes that are being shared in the social media without really even thinking what it actually means. And if you are not fully in your own power and you don't know your own truth, these kind of quotes can cause a lot of anxiety. Or thoughts of "not being brave or good enough".

Because I am now in front of "going with the flow", I wanted to really think about this and understand what this means to me. So that it is not just a phrase that I have heard or read somewhere, but that I truly know what is my truth about this.

So, I gave up my house in new year and very soon I am leaving. I have to say that Roger (my ego) and Victoria (my higher self) have had quite strong argues about where we are supposed to go. Roger just can't relax and trust. He HAS TO KNOW! He just has to have a plan. He needs me to feel safe. And Victoria keeps assuring him, that all will be fine and that our crew don't have to worry about anything. But he just won't listen. So he keeps pushing me to the computer to look for houses or trips, hotels and flights and so I do just to keep him quiet. But as I do this, I feel this old control and push, this "forcing things to happen", instead of just letting things be, like Victoria is trying to tell us.

So finally Cynthia (my god fairy) tells us that why not, we give Roger a class of sparkling wine, so that he could relax a bit and so we do. And now, finally we can have a nice chat without pushing and pulling. We are laughing to him, because he seems to get a little bit tipsy and he is so funny, when he is like this. He is just having this grin in his face and he seems to enjoy the taste of the sparkling wine. Little giggles are coming out every now and then and he wants us to put some music on. He likes to dance when he is tipsy. Oh my, we just absolutely love him! And for sure, we want to see this kind of Roger more often!

So I am in front of something new. And I for sure don't want to control anything, not like Roger. So as he is sipping his sparkling wine, we decide to make a plan just to keep him quiet and relaxed. And so we do. At least, now, we know where to go at the end of this month "if nothing else comes up". At least Roger is now satisfied and quiet. But I can see Victoria smiling. She is quiet, she is allowing Roger to have this plan, but I have this weird feeling, that she knows something that she is not telling me. We THINK that now we know what is going to happen at the end of this month, but the truth is, we don't. It might go as planned, but it might not. But at least, now, Roger and Victoria don't have to argue about it, but our whole crew can relax.

"So Victoria, please explain to me how you see this - going with the flow - thing", I say to her.

"Well, actually there is no one explanation. There is no one way to "go with the flow". It is different in every moment. Right now, for us, it is this. We make a plan, but we are not attached to it. So if something else happens, we allow it to be so. Also, sometimes, going with the flow means that you get this deep inner knowing what you need to do. You don't know how it is going to end up, but you do it anyway. This could be anything. Leaving a job or a partner. You just have this deep inner knowing, that this situation is not good for you anymore and that you have to do something. Sometimes you might even do it without knowing how you are going to get money or where this road of getting singe again might take you, but you are following you heart anyway. This is one way of going with the flow and remember, always, every singe time, you do something brave like this, the Universe will have your back. This means that "when one door closes, other one opens". This takes a lot of trust and courage, but things will always work out, one way or another. Flow", she smiles.

"Also, "going with the flow" means that you might have an insight about what is your next step. It might be a new place to go to without knowing where it leads you, but you just follow this inner guidance. Going with the flow is something that is so personal. You might make a travel plan for six months, but inside that six months, you allow things to happen naturally without planning that much. Or you make some plans and leave some open. Again, flow."

"Isn't it so, that "going with the flow" means, that you can make a plan, but you are not attached to the outcome", asks Cynthia. "Yes love, you are right. This is one way of "going with the flow", answers Victoria.

"If I am totally honest, you Saija, are the only one who can define what "going with the flow" means to you in each moment. Sometimes you know what to do and where to go, sometimes you know some and you go anyway without knowing the outcome. "Going with the flow" is like this "gut feeling" you have and when you are following that, you are in the flow. Sometimes with a plan, sometimes half plan and sometimes just knowing a miner thing and jumping into the unknown. Basically what I would say is "WHEN YOU FOLLOW YOUR HEART, YOU ARE GOING WITH THE FLOW. Always. Just remember, that your life is your responsibility. So you have to decide and then the Universe will work with you. But it will not do it FOR you. If you want to win a million in lottery, Universe can not take your coupon to the shop, you have to do it. And then, only then, if is in your soul path, you might have a chance to win that million. You understand?", says Victoria.

Sure, I get it very well. And I have to be honest. There has been times where I have put the responsibility to Universes shoulders and it did not work!

Roger has been quiet, but now he says, "why didn't we do this before? Make a plan, but then allow it to flow. Why did we have to struggle with this with you Victoria?"

"Well, we are here to learn this co-operation between you and me and we did learn a lot, didn't we? And the thing is, we can never make wrong decisions. Never! We are here to learn, so what ever decision we make, it is always the right one in that moment."

Victoria is quiet for a while, but eventually she just can't keep the truth from us anymore. So she says, "Guys, if I am totally honest, the truth about this whole concept of "going with the flow...."

"The truth is that the Universe ALLOWS you to think that you are in control, but if this source power sees that you are doing something that is not meant for you, it will give you a nudge to the right direction. It can happen with a help of a friend or a stranger. It can happen through inner knowing or through synchronic events. Let me give you an example."

"Let's say that you don't want to work in you working place anymore, but you are afraid to leave. So you keep on going and you keep on having this anxiety and this unhappiness and for sure, it doesn't get less, quite the opposite. If you don't have a courage to follow these ques that your body is trying to send you, eventually, "the Universe will step in". This means that maybe in the working place things are starting to get worse and worse. More and more things are happening that are pushing you out of your comfort zone. Until there comes this big event and you are already so fed up, that you just quit without thinking it too much anymore. The only thing you have in your mind is "anything is better then this!" Yes babes, going with the flow!", she laughs.

"If your souls path is to stay in the same job for all your life, then this is what you signed in, before you were born. Then this is the way to get your lessons that you are meant to get in this lifetime. It doesn't mean that you are not "in the flow". The Universe keeps us all ALWAYS in the flow, but this happens in unique ways. In a way that was agreed by your soul before coming to earth. So "going with the flow" has nothing to do with courage, because flow is ever present. Some people make more bold moves, some live more solid life. And yet, there is always a flow."

"As you can see, you are always always taken care of. You truly are always in the flow. The though of "this one is going with the flow and this one is not", is just another way for people to create a separation between one another. Control is a man made concept, but in the Universes, this doesn't exist. If you look at animals or nature, there is a perfect flow all the time without any resistance. Humans have just forgotten this, but everything in this Universe is flowing. So what I am trying to say is, that you are actually always "in the flow", you just have forgotten this", says Victoria with a smile in her face. "How easy life would be, if we wouldn't fight against this flow. There would be so much less suffering and so much more joy."

I just absolutely love this!!! How easy can life be! I don't EVER have to worry about "living right" or "going with the flow", because I AM ALWAYS IN THE FLOW and I CAN NOT MAKE WRONG DECISIONS! Wow! Me and Cynthia are clapping our hands, we are so happy!

And now, we are asking Roger to get us classes and share his sparkling wine with us. This is big for me. And to Roger. "Can you imagine Roger how much easier life would be for you if you just would surrender?", I laugh. "I sooooo agree!", he says and takes a sip from his class. "Actually, I want to retire!", he declares laughing.

"Oh no love, I will not let you go as long as I am in this human body. You are stuck with me", I tell him. He comes to me, hugs me tightly and says that he wouldn't like to be anywhere else. And then we all toast to our lovely, beautiful crew! We all agree, we did learn a lot from Victoria today. She is absolutely amazing! Now, we are all happy and relaxed, we have at least one plan and at the same time, we are letting it flow. And we are now at peace with this. So we let it flow, we let it flow.....