PRACTICING TRUST AND "THE NOW"
I have known for almost two months now that I am leaving my old house. Maybe my old home town. Maybe Finland, my home country. The weird thing is, that the answer to the question "where am I going", is not coming. Less then a week and my house has to be empty and I have to be out of here. But where am I supposed to go?
It seems that the collective theme for the last few weeks has been about "going with the flow" without forcing anything, being flexible, staying in the present moment and just trust, have faith, that everything will be sorted out. Nothing to worry. But still, I wanted to gather my crew to have a chat about this.
"I never knew, when letting the house go, that I would be in this position at this time. I was sure, that by now, I would already have a clear plan where and what. But it seems that nothing resonates, nothing is calling me. It is like there is no place in this earth that would feel like home", I say to my crew. "This doesn't make me sad, but it makes me curious. Where will I be taken to?"
"Are you questioning your decision of letting the house go?" Victoria (my higher self) is asking. "No, not at all. This is actually the only thing at this very moment I am sure about", I laugh.
But Roger (my ego) was not going to settle for this. He was the one who wanted to make a plan. So together we decided to make one just to keep him happy. For three days we went through different options where to go, because at that point, he wanted to go somewhere abroad. I have to say, that this was a bit of a struggle, because we didn't wait for the right time. Instead we "were forcing" a solution, just to make Roger happy. I did feel this in my whole body to be honest! Uh, old ways.... Heavy!
Anyway, this is what we did and thank god we have friends all over the world, so there were plenty of options. So me and Roger, we chose one and we were able to book an apartment. This was a time where "I fell into my old ways" and I end up asking advises from my friends. Big decisions like this are hard to make by your self! "And specially if you are forcing it", I laugh. So the suggestions of my friends, just made me more confused, because as we know, me and my crew are the only ones who can know what is best for us. This is the process of leaving the old ways and learning the new. A process my team is in and this is why we allow everything and don't deny anything. We have to allow ourselves to "bang our heard's to the wall" as many times as is needed in order to let the old ways go.
So just to keep Roger quiet and relaxed, we made a plan knowing all along, that it is meant to be left open. So yes to the accommodation, but no to the flights. We have to keep ourselves open for changes and fast movement. Yes, I have been packing the stuff in the house, so I am prepaid that way. It is just the clothes and few minor things that are hard to pack as I am not sure where I am going. So now I am practicing staying "in the now". All I know at the moment is, that I am here, soon to be my ex apartment and writing this text.
"Victoria, what is going on?" I ask her. "Well love", she says. "You are now learning to trust the divine flow and the divine timing. You are learning how to live in the moment and how to enjoy it, instead of stressing about it. It was a very clever thing, that you allowed Roger to have a plan, because he is also learning these new skills. It is not easy for you and for sure it is not easy to him", she laughs. "There are pieces in this Universal puzzle that are not aligned yet and this is why things seem to be unclear. But all is taken care of and I will tell you as soon as I get the info. All you have to do, is relax and trust."
Oh, I knew she is going to say this. And the truth is, that I am relaxed. There was a incident this week, that shook Roger for a bit. He got upset, irritated and disappointed. So I allowed him to feel this, but to my surprise, it didn't last that long. "In the old days", this process would have taken him days, but now, within an hour, we were back in balance. "We are so proud of you Roger", we all tell him.
He is smiling and says "Thank you guys! I am practicing, for sure. But I am committed to this new way of being with all of you and so I am doing my level best to adapt this." This is true. I am so proud of him. We allow him to practice by accepting and loving him fully as he is going through this transformation. We love him, as he loves us and we know that he has committed himself for this new way because he wants to be part of our team, not fight against us. Sometimes this requires compromising.
And so we keep going with the flow. I keep on practicing this "staying in the moment" and trusting and to my surprise, now that Roger is on board, it is quite natural for me. Even if our balance is shaken up by something outside of us, I bounce back to my center so fast! And I am content again. I just don't stress. Quite opposite, I am excited! I accept the situations and the days as they come and well, that's it. Who would have known that former completer and control freak could live like this?!
"Can you see now love, how well you are protected by the spirit?" asks Victoria. "You are in your safe cocoon where you can practice these new skills in your own pace, without any distractions. You are now creating a base for your new way of living and being. Nothing is solid, because this is not how your life was meant to be. You chose to be here at this time and break all the old beliefs about how we are supposed to live our lives. Staying in the same job or living in the same house for all your life. And this is totally fine, of cause, if this is someones soul path, but it is not yours. You are meant to flow. You had this two months time to get stronger inside, before we send you out in to the world. And remember, that world is Finland too! This say this just so you understand that any destination is as good as another. I have this feeling that we are not going to stay in Finland, but I can not say anything solid yet."
"But can you see love, how all this time after new year, has been given to you as a gift, so that you can see what is it that you no longer want in you life. You are releasing so much old stuff, but you can not feel or see it yet. But it is happening. Now you are so solid in your own truth without caring what others say. This is what is needed from you as a leader. Because leader you are. Leader of new ways."
"When we have been stuck in the old ways of being for so long, it is necessary that when we start something new, it goes to the extreme. It is the only way to keep the balance for a while. But as more and more people adapt and tap into the new energy, the opposites don't have to be so far away from each other. You understand? Good example of this is that for the longest time, we have been living in such a hard, masculine world where our souls and spirit where totally forgotten. Too much violence and bad things happening. So to even the energetic scale, so to say, came spirituality, femininity, softness and it went "over board". Or this is how some humans see it. But it had to be this way, so the energetic balance was kept on earth. This is what is happening now too with this flow, trust and living in a moment. Some humans, like you love, you are the strongest ones to take this to the extreme. We need this for a while, but eventually, there will be a middle ground and living like this or at least partly like this, will become natural."
Oh my, I just love her wisdom!!!!!! I love her!!!!! Victoria is the best. Even Roger is quiet, because he knows, this is true. It is true for us, I mean.
I have to say, that I have never been happier. I have never been so content. And I love this process of learning new ways. I love the fact that less and less, Roger gets reactions and even if he does, it doesn't take that long for him to remember, that he is part of our team, part of our flow. It is amazing to see these skills developing so fast. And Victoria is right. Without this time in my own solitude and cocoon, I wouldn't have had the privacy to practice all these new things.
So basically, if you look at our situation outside, all is set for the new. I have sold everything, so I really don't have that much stuff anyway. The few things that I was able to pack, is packed. The rest, I will fix within an hour and I am good to go. We have less than one week. Less than one week and no idea where. And I am loving it! I will know when the time is right and I will be taken to the place where I am needed the most and where I can learn more.
This is my new way of being. No solid ground what so ever. And if this is how I am supposed to live, I am okey with it. No stuff to make my transitions difficult or to make me stay in one place. I know I belong to the world, no matter which part of it. And I know Victoria is holding my hand tightly and guiding me to these unknown waters. Roger is there, Cynthia (my god fairy) is there and all my spirit team is there. So why would I need to worry? I am just creating a solid ground, not from outside in, but from inside out. I am creating my fairy tale every singe minute.
How I feel now, you might ask. I am feeling great! I am ready. Scared a bit, but ready. Excited. So what ever beautiful plans the Universe has for me, bring it on! I deserve all of it!
It seems that the collective theme for the last few weeks has been about "going with the flow" without forcing anything, being flexible, staying in the present moment and just trust, have faith, that everything will be sorted out. Nothing to worry. But still, I wanted to gather my crew to have a chat about this.
"I never knew, when letting the house go, that I would be in this position at this time. I was sure, that by now, I would already have a clear plan where and what. But it seems that nothing resonates, nothing is calling me. It is like there is no place in this earth that would feel like home", I say to my crew. "This doesn't make me sad, but it makes me curious. Where will I be taken to?"
"Are you questioning your decision of letting the house go?" Victoria (my higher self) is asking. "No, not at all. This is actually the only thing at this very moment I am sure about", I laugh.
But Roger (my ego) was not going to settle for this. He was the one who wanted to make a plan. So together we decided to make one just to keep him happy. For three days we went through different options where to go, because at that point, he wanted to go somewhere abroad. I have to say, that this was a bit of a struggle, because we didn't wait for the right time. Instead we "were forcing" a solution, just to make Roger happy. I did feel this in my whole body to be honest! Uh, old ways.... Heavy!
Anyway, this is what we did and thank god we have friends all over the world, so there were plenty of options. So me and Roger, we chose one and we were able to book an apartment. This was a time where "I fell into my old ways" and I end up asking advises from my friends. Big decisions like this are hard to make by your self! "And specially if you are forcing it", I laugh. So the suggestions of my friends, just made me more confused, because as we know, me and my crew are the only ones who can know what is best for us. This is the process of leaving the old ways and learning the new. A process my team is in and this is why we allow everything and don't deny anything. We have to allow ourselves to "bang our heard's to the wall" as many times as is needed in order to let the old ways go.
So just to keep Roger quiet and relaxed, we made a plan knowing all along, that it is meant to be left open. So yes to the accommodation, but no to the flights. We have to keep ourselves open for changes and fast movement. Yes, I have been packing the stuff in the house, so I am prepaid that way. It is just the clothes and few minor things that are hard to pack as I am not sure where I am going. So now I am practicing staying "in the now". All I know at the moment is, that I am here, soon to be my ex apartment and writing this text.
"Victoria, what is going on?" I ask her. "Well love", she says. "You are now learning to trust the divine flow and the divine timing. You are learning how to live in the moment and how to enjoy it, instead of stressing about it. It was a very clever thing, that you allowed Roger to have a plan, because he is also learning these new skills. It is not easy for you and for sure it is not easy to him", she laughs. "There are pieces in this Universal puzzle that are not aligned yet and this is why things seem to be unclear. But all is taken care of and I will tell you as soon as I get the info. All you have to do, is relax and trust."
Oh, I knew she is going to say this. And the truth is, that I am relaxed. There was a incident this week, that shook Roger for a bit. He got upset, irritated and disappointed. So I allowed him to feel this, but to my surprise, it didn't last that long. "In the old days", this process would have taken him days, but now, within an hour, we were back in balance. "We are so proud of you Roger", we all tell him.
He is smiling and says "Thank you guys! I am practicing, for sure. But I am committed to this new way of being with all of you and so I am doing my level best to adapt this." This is true. I am so proud of him. We allow him to practice by accepting and loving him fully as he is going through this transformation. We love him, as he loves us and we know that he has committed himself for this new way because he wants to be part of our team, not fight against us. Sometimes this requires compromising.
And so we keep going with the flow. I keep on practicing this "staying in the moment" and trusting and to my surprise, now that Roger is on board, it is quite natural for me. Even if our balance is shaken up by something outside of us, I bounce back to my center so fast! And I am content again. I just don't stress. Quite opposite, I am excited! I accept the situations and the days as they come and well, that's it. Who would have known that former completer and control freak could live like this?!
"Can you see now love, how well you are protected by the spirit?" asks Victoria. "You are in your safe cocoon where you can practice these new skills in your own pace, without any distractions. You are now creating a base for your new way of living and being. Nothing is solid, because this is not how your life was meant to be. You chose to be here at this time and break all the old beliefs about how we are supposed to live our lives. Staying in the same job or living in the same house for all your life. And this is totally fine, of cause, if this is someones soul path, but it is not yours. You are meant to flow. You had this two months time to get stronger inside, before we send you out in to the world. And remember, that world is Finland too! This say this just so you understand that any destination is as good as another. I have this feeling that we are not going to stay in Finland, but I can not say anything solid yet."
"But can you see love, how all this time after new year, has been given to you as a gift, so that you can see what is it that you no longer want in you life. You are releasing so much old stuff, but you can not feel or see it yet. But it is happening. Now you are so solid in your own truth without caring what others say. This is what is needed from you as a leader. Because leader you are. Leader of new ways."
"When we have been stuck in the old ways of being for so long, it is necessary that when we start something new, it goes to the extreme. It is the only way to keep the balance for a while. But as more and more people adapt and tap into the new energy, the opposites don't have to be so far away from each other. You understand? Good example of this is that for the longest time, we have been living in such a hard, masculine world where our souls and spirit where totally forgotten. Too much violence and bad things happening. So to even the energetic scale, so to say, came spirituality, femininity, softness and it went "over board". Or this is how some humans see it. But it had to be this way, so the energetic balance was kept on earth. This is what is happening now too with this flow, trust and living in a moment. Some humans, like you love, you are the strongest ones to take this to the extreme. We need this for a while, but eventually, there will be a middle ground and living like this or at least partly like this, will become natural."
Oh my, I just love her wisdom!!!!!! I love her!!!!! Victoria is the best. Even Roger is quiet, because he knows, this is true. It is true for us, I mean.
I have to say, that I have never been happier. I have never been so content. And I love this process of learning new ways. I love the fact that less and less, Roger gets reactions and even if he does, it doesn't take that long for him to remember, that he is part of our team, part of our flow. It is amazing to see these skills developing so fast. And Victoria is right. Without this time in my own solitude and cocoon, I wouldn't have had the privacy to practice all these new things.
So basically, if you look at our situation outside, all is set for the new. I have sold everything, so I really don't have that much stuff anyway. The few things that I was able to pack, is packed. The rest, I will fix within an hour and I am good to go. We have less than one week. Less than one week and no idea where. And I am loving it! I will know when the time is right and I will be taken to the place where I am needed the most and where I can learn more.
This is my new way of being. No solid ground what so ever. And if this is how I am supposed to live, I am okey with it. No stuff to make my transitions difficult or to make me stay in one place. I know I belong to the world, no matter which part of it. And I know Victoria is holding my hand tightly and guiding me to these unknown waters. Roger is there, Cynthia (my god fairy) is there and all my spirit team is there. So why would I need to worry? I am just creating a solid ground, not from outside in, but from inside out. I am creating my fairy tale every singe minute.
How I feel now, you might ask. I am feeling great! I am ready. Scared a bit, but ready. Excited. So what ever beautiful plans the Universe has for me, bring it on! I deserve all of it!
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