LEARNING NEW WAYS
These couple of days I have been quite happy. Content, I must say, is a better word than happy. Content. Fulfilled. Peaceful. Joyful. It is not like I haven't been happy or joyful before in my life, but this is something different. It feels different. It is an inner feeling that I have and it has nothing to do with anything outside of me. Outside doesn't matter. It doesn't affect my inner world that much anymore. And less and less all the time. I am already full.
"This is something that I haven't experienced before", I tell my crew. " I wrote about rebirth before here, because I thought, that my healing was done. But few intense days came after that. I mean really intense! But now.... I keep on waiting for that intensity to come, but it is not coming. The process has changed. Now this new energy just gets integrated deeper and deeper. Nothing outside of me haven't changed in anyway, but everything inside of me, has. I am content. And now as I am speaking to you guys, I don't go for happiness, I go for joy. I feel like the energy is totally different, you know. It is like happiness is not enough to describe this. Joy is better. Lighter."
My crew are clapping their hands! We can not believe that we are finally getting some kind of peace into our lives after the healing process. We all feel the difference to what was before and how is it now. This inner filling up that has nothing to do with anything else then us. So this is what unconditional love feels like!
"It is so weird. It is like I can not go for "setting goals" or planning things anymore. All is well here and now and I don't need to know more", I say.
Roger (my ego) is so happy for me. He has finally joined our team and now he is constantly asking me, if I am okay, if there is anything he can do or if I need to hold his hand in order to feel safe. I just love my new Roger! He is so good and kind and now he is playing along with our new way of being.
"Love, now you understand what it means when someone says "happiness doesn't come outside", don't you?", asks Victoria (my higher self). Oh yes, for sure! It is amazing! This feeling is amazing!
If I compare me now to that lady I was, the difference is huge! It might not show outside yet, but the new is here. I haven't bought any new clothes, I haven't got a new car or a new house. I haven't got any more money, I haven't changed the way I dress, I haven't got a plan for the future. I don't have a treasure map in order to manifest anything. I don't sit in meditation or do spells. Mostly I am alone, because this is how I prefer things at the moment. Days just go without any business or agenda. I am so powerful. Now I can feel it myself too and now I am not scared of it. It is like I have this big tiger inside of me. A tiger that is not angry, but gentle. Not violent, but firm. Has empathy for all, but knows her boundaries. Loves everybody, but doesn't take any bullshit. This inner power comes from unconditional love, not ego (sorry Roger) and it feels so totally different. This is so new to me!
I was able to fulfill myself. Now anything that comes on top, is just an extra filling. Like when you make tacos. You can add many fillings inside, but the base is always there.
My crew agrees. Cynthia starts to giggle, because she things that tacos without fillings are tasteless, so she would have used some other example to describe my inner world. "Okey love", I say. "Let's take avocado? It's juicy and nice without anything, but if you put some salt on top or you add it to the salad, it's better. Is this a good one?", I ask her with the smile on my face. "Oh yeah baby, I like this one. Juicy. Oh, I like that word. Love, you are juicy!!!!", she giggles.
The rest of us just, we just roll our eyes on her. She is having a lot of energy today! And this is good. At least one of us is, because the rest of us are quite calm and relaxed today. I need her energy so that I can take my yoga mat later and do my practice. So good for her! Keep it up, babe!
So now me and my crew, we are learning this new way of being. I can not control anything anymore. Victoria is in charge. This allows me to relax and just do me. I don't plan my days, I just see what comes along. I don't have a calendar anymore. I can not plan my future, because I don't know what the Universe has planned for me. Before I was frustrated, now I am excited not to know. I don't want to know, I like surprises! Social media don't seem so important anymore and I don't listen to anyone outside of me anymore. I have left all my gurus, all my books and videos. I am in charge of my own life, so I don't listen to anyone on how I should live my life.
I listen to my crew. I listen to my body. Victoria and the rest of the crew, they will always guide me forward. My body will always tell me what to eat. I don't have to think about it. Now this goes with the flow. I don't plan my exercises. I exercise when my body wants movement and now, I would never ever force it to do something, if she didn't want to. I allow my body to be. I don't have to deny anything from me, because I don't have any beliefs anymore. If I want to chocolate, I will have chocolate. We all looooove chocolate! The difference is that what ever I do, I CHOOSE to do it. I am very aware of all of my choices.
I don't need people or things. All that I need, will be brought to me in the right time. I am not attached to tittles, clothes, money, fame, likes in FB or anything anymore. I don't have to exercise to have a six pack, but because it makes me feel good. "If I am totally honest, I feel like Alice in wonderland", I say.
"This is so beautiful", says Victoria. It is amazing how my crew and my body guide me in every moment. I can relax and just enjoy. I used to think that I need to travel or go to a amusement park in order to get my adrenaline highs. Now this comes from "not knowing". I can not know what is around the corner. All I know is that I am content. No more ups and downs. No more outside influences. No more people telling me how or when or what. All the training's and courses. All the one on one sessions. And now, finally, I am content. I am full.
"This is something that I haven't experienced before", I tell my crew. " I wrote about rebirth before here, because I thought, that my healing was done. But few intense days came after that. I mean really intense! But now.... I keep on waiting for that intensity to come, but it is not coming. The process has changed. Now this new energy just gets integrated deeper and deeper. Nothing outside of me haven't changed in anyway, but everything inside of me, has. I am content. And now as I am speaking to you guys, I don't go for happiness, I go for joy. I feel like the energy is totally different, you know. It is like happiness is not enough to describe this. Joy is better. Lighter."
My crew are clapping their hands! We can not believe that we are finally getting some kind of peace into our lives after the healing process. We all feel the difference to what was before and how is it now. This inner filling up that has nothing to do with anything else then us. So this is what unconditional love feels like!
"It is so weird. It is like I can not go for "setting goals" or planning things anymore. All is well here and now and I don't need to know more", I say.
Roger (my ego) is so happy for me. He has finally joined our team and now he is constantly asking me, if I am okay, if there is anything he can do or if I need to hold his hand in order to feel safe. I just love my new Roger! He is so good and kind and now he is playing along with our new way of being.
"Love, now you understand what it means when someone says "happiness doesn't come outside", don't you?", asks Victoria (my higher self). Oh yes, for sure! It is amazing! This feeling is amazing!
If I compare me now to that lady I was, the difference is huge! It might not show outside yet, but the new is here. I haven't bought any new clothes, I haven't got a new car or a new house. I haven't got any more money, I haven't changed the way I dress, I haven't got a plan for the future. I don't have a treasure map in order to manifest anything. I don't sit in meditation or do spells. Mostly I am alone, because this is how I prefer things at the moment. Days just go without any business or agenda. I am so powerful. Now I can feel it myself too and now I am not scared of it. It is like I have this big tiger inside of me. A tiger that is not angry, but gentle. Not violent, but firm. Has empathy for all, but knows her boundaries. Loves everybody, but doesn't take any bullshit. This inner power comes from unconditional love, not ego (sorry Roger) and it feels so totally different. This is so new to me!
I was able to fulfill myself. Now anything that comes on top, is just an extra filling. Like when you make tacos. You can add many fillings inside, but the base is always there.
My crew agrees. Cynthia starts to giggle, because she things that tacos without fillings are tasteless, so she would have used some other example to describe my inner world. "Okey love", I say. "Let's take avocado? It's juicy and nice without anything, but if you put some salt on top or you add it to the salad, it's better. Is this a good one?", I ask her with the smile on my face. "Oh yeah baby, I like this one. Juicy. Oh, I like that word. Love, you are juicy!!!!", she giggles.
The rest of us just, we just roll our eyes on her. She is having a lot of energy today! And this is good. At least one of us is, because the rest of us are quite calm and relaxed today. I need her energy so that I can take my yoga mat later and do my practice. So good for her! Keep it up, babe!
So now me and my crew, we are learning this new way of being. I can not control anything anymore. Victoria is in charge. This allows me to relax and just do me. I don't plan my days, I just see what comes along. I don't have a calendar anymore. I can not plan my future, because I don't know what the Universe has planned for me. Before I was frustrated, now I am excited not to know. I don't want to know, I like surprises! Social media don't seem so important anymore and I don't listen to anyone outside of me anymore. I have left all my gurus, all my books and videos. I am in charge of my own life, so I don't listen to anyone on how I should live my life.
I listen to my crew. I listen to my body. Victoria and the rest of the crew, they will always guide me forward. My body will always tell me what to eat. I don't have to think about it. Now this goes with the flow. I don't plan my exercises. I exercise when my body wants movement and now, I would never ever force it to do something, if she didn't want to. I allow my body to be. I don't have to deny anything from me, because I don't have any beliefs anymore. If I want to chocolate, I will have chocolate. We all looooove chocolate! The difference is that what ever I do, I CHOOSE to do it. I am very aware of all of my choices.
I don't need people or things. All that I need, will be brought to me in the right time. I am not attached to tittles, clothes, money, fame, likes in FB or anything anymore. I don't have to exercise to have a six pack, but because it makes me feel good. "If I am totally honest, I feel like Alice in wonderland", I say.
"This is so beautiful", says Victoria. It is amazing how my crew and my body guide me in every moment. I can relax and just enjoy. I used to think that I need to travel or go to a amusement park in order to get my adrenaline highs. Now this comes from "not knowing". I can not know what is around the corner. All I know is that I am content. No more ups and downs. No more outside influences. No more people telling me how or when or what. All the training's and courses. All the one on one sessions. And now, finally, I am content. I am full.
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