ENERGY SENSITIVE

I have been quite sensitive to energies always. I just haven't quite understood the depth of this and my own reactions when I sense something. Also, I used to think that this was a bad thing, but now I understand, that I have a huge gift! And so as I went through my cleansing process, I also started to understand this part of myself better. And the more I got rid of all the old beliefs and fears, my sensitivity just got more higher. I have also gotten a lot of new qualities that are very interesting to me and I truly enjoy them. I learn as I go along.

We are all sensitives. It is just that, again, we all have our own unique soul path and some can feel these energies better, some those. It doesn't really matter. Some are more aware about this quality, some are not. Either way, it is all as good as the other. 

I think we can all sense the atmosphere in the room when we enter there. This is quite normal. What ever is going on with our human mind, turns into an energy and this energy is the one we can sense. Me and Victoria (my higher self) have been talking about my sensitivity quite a lot. Specially now when it is increasing. 

I didn't always understand why my mood can swing so fast from a very joyful and happy feeling into an anger or frustration. I always blamed myself for being too moody. Now I know that I have always sensed the other persons energy. Not what they were saying or doing, but the unseen and unspoken part. And as an emphatic person, I reacted to this. And this changed my mood very quickly. 

I also always wanted to see people being happy. Because when people around me were happy, it was easier and the most comfortable for me. Then there are no mixed energies in the air. This is why I was a people pleaser. This is why I tried to give advises and directions, so that the person I was with, would feel better. And then I could relax and feel better.

I know what is not said. I sense what is going on under the surface. I know when someone is lying or there is something going on. I sense it, even if I can not put it in words. And before I always blamed myself, that there was something wrong with me. In a working place where I used to felt very okey, suddenly I felt very uncomfortable. I am so happy that I have got to know this part of myself so well. Now I know exactly what to do in every situation. Sometimes I say what I "see and hear", sometimes not. Now I have also learned not always say anything. Even if I sense something, it is not of my business. 

"This is very good", says Victoria. We both smile and hug each other. Roger (my ego) is nodding his head. "The more you dig in, the more you learn about yourself. This is so beautiful! This is why you don't need any outside factors to tell you what is your truth and what is not. It is so wonderful to become your own guru in everything", he says. I have to agree. It is very empowering!

So I sense my guides, I sense the pass away souls, I sense other people's energies and now this quality is so heighten that even if I see a text message or a picture, I can sense that persons emotions. Even sometimes what is going on with them! I now know how different energies feel in my body. This is so weird! But quite wonderful! 

"And this is why you need quite a lot of alone time too! This can sometimes be too much for you, because when ever you are around a lot of people for too long, your senses get tired. You get tired. Loud noises, too much people, small space, crowded shops and so on. This can be too much for you", says Cynthia (my god fairy). This is true, but thank god, now I know it and I know how to deal with it. And also, less and less, other people's energies effect to my moods. Now I know what is going on, so I know how to deal with this. 

Something new is also going on. That is that I can sense the energies pouring to the earth. This is SO new to me! "One night I was out and as I came in, I felt this huge heaviness. Like I would absolutely drop inside the ground. So heavy! And in that moment, I heard some of you (my guides) whispering that this is the new energy grounding to the earth. "Even when I went to bed, I felt like I could sink inside the sofa, I felt so heavy", I am laughing. Victoria is nodding. She knows what I am talking about and she is responsible for this area too. 

"This is a ability that we are still developing with you love", she says. "I am just so happy that we are so connected that you can hear my explanations." Me too, I say to her.

These new energies that are pouring to the earth where the ones that pushed all the darkness out of me. All the fears and beliefs. "This is now happening to everyone at this time", says Victoria. "Things that used to make you happy, don't anymore. People you used to like to hand around with, don't feel that nice anymore. Working place might suddenly start to feel uncomfortable. Things like this. This is all about this new energy doing it's magic", she says smiling. 

"Yes, this is true!", I say. "It happened to me just like that! But now something has shifted."

"Please tell us", says Cynthia. 

"Well, yesterday I felt another energy wave coming to earth. I feel like always when these energy waves come, first I feel light and happy and maybe next day or few days after, I feel tired. Now I don't feel anxiety, anger or frustration anymore." 

"This is true", says Victoria. "Your inner world is now more clean then ever, you are also excepting "what is" and not resisting anything. This is why, you feel the energy, but now, you don't get a reaction as before." This is true.

But me and Roger did have a conversation today about this. For the first time, we agreed and he actually listened me. And did what I wanted him to do. Like I said, yesterday I felt this light energy pouring to earth. Today, I feel like it is being grounded and so I felt tired already in the morning. Even though I slept very well in the night. So after running some errands, I came home and I was so tired that I needed to come to the sofa and have a nap. "That was the time when Roger started to analyze this, isn't it lovie", I ask him.

"Yes", he says with a smile on his face. "I just always want to know what is going on with you".

But for the first time, I asked him to just let things be as they are. No need to analyze. That this is just new energy grounding to earth, we know what's going on and that's all we have to know. And if he wants to help, he could just come close to me, take me into his arms and just allow me to rest there. That would be the most safe place for me. And for the first time ever, this is what he did! 

So I had my nap in Roger's arms with Victoria and Cynthia by my side too and we were just letting the energies flow and ground. And I am so grateful for this! Now we truly are a team, playing the same game. Not against each other, but on the same side! And I have never ever felt more safe in my life! Amazing! 

And this is my safety crew. This is my safety harbour where I can get to know my new energy sensitivities in peace and feeling safe. As hard as it has been for me to learn these new things, it surely has been hard to Roger too. But now we are in the same page. This is big! 

So big and new things are happening to our little crew, but we flow one moment at the time.