THE CREW

I have always loved fairytales and cartoons and I love my inner child, little Saija, who likes to play, have fun and laugh! As we know, awakening and healing can be very hard and very lonely too. In order to make things a little bit lighter and also to play a little bit with my creativity, I named my soul (my heart, my higher self) and ego.  

So first, meet VICTORIA. She is my higher self, the voice of wisdom and these days the leader of our team. She is kind, wise, has huge love, compassion and empathy for all the living beings.

Her love towards me is truly unconditional! She never judges me. She loves all parts of me unconditionally and in her eyes I can never do anything wrong. "As long as we learn, there are no mistakes", is her motto.

She guides me with a loving hand without any pressure of "I have to be perfect". She knows that our team is a "working progress" and she is the one who gives all the grace she can to our crew. She respects my courage and unwavering commitment to our crew hugely.

Read one chat I had with Victoria here: CHAT WITH VICTORIA

She knows what I have been going through in this life and how much courage it takes to keep going in this inner healing journey. That’s why she is in AAAAH when she looks at me. 

She can see the bigger picture when me and Roger can't. She truly is the voice of my heart and our connection to the Universes. She knows how to follow and flow with the energy. She is the one who tells me when to be or when to act. She has taught me a lot about patience and that healing truly is a marathon! She reminds me of the connection to nature. She allows me to enjoy life treasures, like chocolate or a glass of wine without any guilt whatsoever! She is the one who asks me not to be too hard on myself and show mercy. To be softer. Right now she is guiding me to open up my heart again. To be open to life again.

She turns our life lessons into this magical inner wisdom. She is guiding me into true freedom!

Then we have our lovely ROGER. He is my ego, my mind, but also my protector. He used to be so loud, hard and critical! Sometimes his fits were crazy! Don't think for one second that he gave up his driver's seat to Victoria easily! Oh no! It took a long time before he was ready to step aside. 

You can read more about Roger here: ROGER'S FIT!

I think that this healing journey has been toughest to him, because he only knows the old ways of keeping our crew safe. Where Victoria follows the energy, has trust and faith in life, Roger needs to know, control, plan and then act. Our new way of living is having no compass whatsoever on how the future is going to unfold, so we are living in this weird place of not knowing what is going to happen next. We live through impulces of energy, not planning and this drives him crazy.

So it is understandable that he freaks out sometimes. But throughout our inner journey, even he has gotten softer. He is brave, kind and knows a million ways to confuse me! Oh how he likes to create stories! 

But without Roger, I wouldn't be where I am today. Without his inner chatter, I wouldn't have learned so much about myself and about mercy and grace towards myself. He is sometimes yabbing in the corner of my sofa and I surely listen, but I don't take it seriously anymore. It is good that he can get it out of his system and we respect that process a lot. This has taught me how to accept myself fully in every mood and with every feeling.

We all love and respect him so much, because at the end, he just wants to keep us safe. He is a very important part of our crew and we couldn't make it without him! And he does love me unconditionally no matter his yapping or fits!

Last, but not least, we have CYNTHIA. She is my god fairy. She is mostly invisible, but I can sense her presence. She is part of the security team among many other guides that I have around me. I feel that I am very very protected. She never speaks or interferes with my life journey. 

She is playful, joyful and is really not that interested in "deep shit". She is the representation of “life is not so serious”. She is the one whose presence reminds me that having fun doesn't mean that I am not responsible. Oh no, lovies! It is time to find our way back to our inner child, give her/him the attention she/he deserves and allow her/him to play!

Many times I might sit in front of my computer and I have a topic, but I don't have any idea what is going to come out. As I write, I feel like Victoria takes over and even myself, I have to go back and see what came out. It is so amazing and fun! 

So now you have met my crew!

We hope that you enjoy your visit here on our blog!

With love always,

Saija 😇