LOVELY VICTORIA
Today I want to introduce to you the gorgeous Victoria. She is my higher self or inner guide or the voice of my intuition. She is saying that all these descriptions are perfect!
Where does the name Victoria come from? She says that she chose this name, because we have been so victorious. We have gone to hell and back in this awakening journey and we are still facing some challenges, since there is another change going on, from the old to the new. So this is how she came out with the name of Victoria and I must say that I love the name.
For many years I did not consciously know that she was around. I was so busy with my life and doing doing, that I never gave her a change to be heard. Well, this is not completely true, since she has been always guiding me, I just didn't know it. She knew that I had to go through the lessons that life threw at me, but it doesn't mean that this was easy to her. She suffered as I suffered.
This was the time in my life when Roger (my ego) was totally in charge. Now we are in a whole new reality where Roger is still around for sure, but he is not driving the car anymore. Victoria is. She has taken the lead, so that I can finally learn what unconditional love is and so that I can finally find my way into more fulfilling life. She is helping me to find my true self too. Big job she has, doesn't she?
Me and Victoria had a chat today. I am in this life transformation journey at the moment, so I needed to ask her advice on something. The thing is that lately I have been watching all kinds of videos and energy reports in order to get some ideas where I am heading and when. I can see that sometimes "the old spiritual lessons" tell you to think positive or your manifestations don't come true. Victoria has tried to whisper to me, that this is not true, but since I am stubborn, I haven't really paid that much attention to her whispers. Until now.
So I sat down and called her to come to me. I was explaining my feelings to her and that when I watch these videos, I sometimes get huge anxiety. These old teachings also sometimes make me feel that I am doing something wrong, because I still don't have the answers that I am looking for and because I am not yet where I want to be.
So she came to me and we had a chat. "Love", she said. "Remember that you are in charge of your life. No one else. No matter how everybody else are living their lives, don't compare yourself to anybody. Why? Because there is nobody else who is you. So only you can know what is best for you".
We end up talking about change and how the process goes. Because it is a process. She gave me a good point of view. "When you are in a working place or in a relationship and suddenly something starts to feel like it is not aligned anymore, you first notice it. Then the change process starts. Through out this change process you have to go through many feelings. Mostly fears."
She continues. "As you start to feel that the situation, no matter what it is, is not serving you anymore, the first thing you might feel is anxiety. If you are not feeling any negative feelings, there is no need for change. This is why they are so important. Also you might start to feel feelings of unhappiness, not being fulfilled, lack of interest, tiredness, lack of creativity, lack of joy and feeling like you don't belong. All this is normal and it is just a part of the change that is unfolding."
"Let me give you an example", she says. "Let's say that you want to end up your relationship. Your feelings don't die just like that. You still feel love towards the person you might have spend years with, but maybe not the same way as before. So you go through these feelings of you don't want to hurt anyone, what are you going to do if you leave, how and where you are going to live and survive and so on. Maybe you still want to give this relationship multiple changes before you are ready to let go. And there are always people that are left behind when a relationship ends. These are big big things and they can not be solved in a week or even a month! So you see, these are all part of the process and this is why I say, that it takes time. All these feelings are teaching you something about you and this is so very important. This is why we are here in this life too. To learn. So you see. The process of change can not happen over night."
I was very quiet and I gave this a minute and I have to say that she is very correct. I am going through a huge change. The old circle is closed almost and I know that I am in front of something new. What I know at the moment is, that I am getting ready to move. That is all I know. When and where, this is the info that Victoria has not given me yet. Why I ask her.
"Love, because you need time. You have never been the person that you are now. You have been so brave in this journey and now you are facing the biggest change of your life. You have left your family and most of your friends. You need to get over this. You have a daughter and a grandson and I know you love them so much. So you need time to have the courage to leave them in order to move on. This is not easy. You need to face all your fears when it comes to money and the unknown. So I am just allowing this time for you to deal with all of this and also to learn from this. You are learning more about YOU every day! That is all that is going on".
Again I sit quiet and think about her words and I have to say, that she is so wise. Roger (my ego) would be ready to just go! He is pushing me forward, and for sure, this also is a good thing, but instead of pushing, I now understand, that I have to go with the flow. I have to allow Victoria to be in charge as she has been for years now. She knows what she is doing and she will give me answers when the time is right.
"Remember love that don't allow anyone to tell you how to feel. No manifestation can ever pass you by. Ever! No matter what you do. Just do you. It is very important that you are authentic even when you are feeling anxiety or stress. This is the most important part of this process! Those feelings are all part of this process. How much damage you would do to yourself, if you would try to deny your feelings, no matter what they are. You are a human being with human emotions. Yes, you have a high consciousness level, but your soul journey is not about meditating in the mountains for your whole life. Maybe in that case your soul journey would include learning how to "get out of" these negative feelings. But. You are here to experience human life WITH this high consciousness and this includes your feelings. Someone else might have a different soul journey. This is why it is so important NOT to compare yourself with others. And just remember, that eventually there will come a day when I will let you know what to do and where we go and then you are ready for it. Until then all you have to do, is to be you".
Phiuh, I sigh. What a relief! Because it is not easy to be in a situation where nothing is serving you anymore. So there must be days when I feel lazy, I don't want to go out that much and when I feel stuck. "Love, you can never be stuck. It is all about timing, that's all. This is something I want to remind you about", she says. Oh, thank you. That is true.
This is the process of change. Some days you feel like you are in the top of the world and some days are less easy. But this is how this process goes. I don't want to fight it anymore. After all, in the big picture, I have everything I need and every day is energetically different. "Love, this is a good point", Victoria says. "We have to remember, that not only are you going through a massive change, but we are also part of the cosmos. Part of the Universe and what ever is going on there, it must also affect you. Not only are you feeling your own feelings, but you feel the collective energies, the energies of others and the frequency of Mother Earth and she is flying high these day", she laughs. Oh yeah baby, this is huge!
And so I go on. Moment by moment. Minute by minute. I let go of all the teachings of others and go back to my center where my power lies. Where Victoria takes care of me and is in contact with my guides at all times. And of cause I have Roger and Cynthia too. So I am safe and well taken care of. Now us four (me, Victoria, Roger and Cynthia) will open up Netflix, I will take my candies and we will choose a nice children's movie to watch. Anxiety or not, big changes or not, at the moment it seems, that in our kingdom, all is well. I am well protected and I am loved big time!
Where does the name Victoria come from? She says that she chose this name, because we have been so victorious. We have gone to hell and back in this awakening journey and we are still facing some challenges, since there is another change going on, from the old to the new. So this is how she came out with the name of Victoria and I must say that I love the name.
For many years I did not consciously know that she was around. I was so busy with my life and doing doing, that I never gave her a change to be heard. Well, this is not completely true, since she has been always guiding me, I just didn't know it. She knew that I had to go through the lessons that life threw at me, but it doesn't mean that this was easy to her. She suffered as I suffered.
This was the time in my life when Roger (my ego) was totally in charge. Now we are in a whole new reality where Roger is still around for sure, but he is not driving the car anymore. Victoria is. She has taken the lead, so that I can finally learn what unconditional love is and so that I can finally find my way into more fulfilling life. She is helping me to find my true self too. Big job she has, doesn't she?
Me and Victoria had a chat today. I am in this life transformation journey at the moment, so I needed to ask her advice on something. The thing is that lately I have been watching all kinds of videos and energy reports in order to get some ideas where I am heading and when. I can see that sometimes "the old spiritual lessons" tell you to think positive or your manifestations don't come true. Victoria has tried to whisper to me, that this is not true, but since I am stubborn, I haven't really paid that much attention to her whispers. Until now.
So I sat down and called her to come to me. I was explaining my feelings to her and that when I watch these videos, I sometimes get huge anxiety. These old teachings also sometimes make me feel that I am doing something wrong, because I still don't have the answers that I am looking for and because I am not yet where I want to be.
So she came to me and we had a chat. "Love", she said. "Remember that you are in charge of your life. No one else. No matter how everybody else are living their lives, don't compare yourself to anybody. Why? Because there is nobody else who is you. So only you can know what is best for you".
We end up talking about change and how the process goes. Because it is a process. She gave me a good point of view. "When you are in a working place or in a relationship and suddenly something starts to feel like it is not aligned anymore, you first notice it. Then the change process starts. Through out this change process you have to go through many feelings. Mostly fears."
She continues. "As you start to feel that the situation, no matter what it is, is not serving you anymore, the first thing you might feel is anxiety. If you are not feeling any negative feelings, there is no need for change. This is why they are so important. Also you might start to feel feelings of unhappiness, not being fulfilled, lack of interest, tiredness, lack of creativity, lack of joy and feeling like you don't belong. All this is normal and it is just a part of the change that is unfolding."
"Let me give you an example", she says. "Let's say that you want to end up your relationship. Your feelings don't die just like that. You still feel love towards the person you might have spend years with, but maybe not the same way as before. So you go through these feelings of you don't want to hurt anyone, what are you going to do if you leave, how and where you are going to live and survive and so on. Maybe you still want to give this relationship multiple changes before you are ready to let go. And there are always people that are left behind when a relationship ends. These are big big things and they can not be solved in a week or even a month! So you see, these are all part of the process and this is why I say, that it takes time. All these feelings are teaching you something about you and this is so very important. This is why we are here in this life too. To learn. So you see. The process of change can not happen over night."
I was very quiet and I gave this a minute and I have to say that she is very correct. I am going through a huge change. The old circle is closed almost and I know that I am in front of something new. What I know at the moment is, that I am getting ready to move. That is all I know. When and where, this is the info that Victoria has not given me yet. Why I ask her.
"Love, because you need time. You have never been the person that you are now. You have been so brave in this journey and now you are facing the biggest change of your life. You have left your family and most of your friends. You need to get over this. You have a daughter and a grandson and I know you love them so much. So you need time to have the courage to leave them in order to move on. This is not easy. You need to face all your fears when it comes to money and the unknown. So I am just allowing this time for you to deal with all of this and also to learn from this. You are learning more about YOU every day! That is all that is going on".
Again I sit quiet and think about her words and I have to say, that she is so wise. Roger (my ego) would be ready to just go! He is pushing me forward, and for sure, this also is a good thing, but instead of pushing, I now understand, that I have to go with the flow. I have to allow Victoria to be in charge as she has been for years now. She knows what she is doing and she will give me answers when the time is right.
"Remember love that don't allow anyone to tell you how to feel. No manifestation can ever pass you by. Ever! No matter what you do. Just do you. It is very important that you are authentic even when you are feeling anxiety or stress. This is the most important part of this process! Those feelings are all part of this process. How much damage you would do to yourself, if you would try to deny your feelings, no matter what they are. You are a human being with human emotions. Yes, you have a high consciousness level, but your soul journey is not about meditating in the mountains for your whole life. Maybe in that case your soul journey would include learning how to "get out of" these negative feelings. But. You are here to experience human life WITH this high consciousness and this includes your feelings. Someone else might have a different soul journey. This is why it is so important NOT to compare yourself with others. And just remember, that eventually there will come a day when I will let you know what to do and where we go and then you are ready for it. Until then all you have to do, is to be you".
Phiuh, I sigh. What a relief! Because it is not easy to be in a situation where nothing is serving you anymore. So there must be days when I feel lazy, I don't want to go out that much and when I feel stuck. "Love, you can never be stuck. It is all about timing, that's all. This is something I want to remind you about", she says. Oh, thank you. That is true.
This is the process of change. Some days you feel like you are in the top of the world and some days are less easy. But this is how this process goes. I don't want to fight it anymore. After all, in the big picture, I have everything I need and every day is energetically different. "Love, this is a good point", Victoria says. "We have to remember, that not only are you going through a massive change, but we are also part of the cosmos. Part of the Universe and what ever is going on there, it must also affect you. Not only are you feeling your own feelings, but you feel the collective energies, the energies of others and the frequency of Mother Earth and she is flying high these day", she laughs. Oh yeah baby, this is huge!
And so I go on. Moment by moment. Minute by minute. I let go of all the teachings of others and go back to my center where my power lies. Where Victoria takes care of me and is in contact with my guides at all times. And of cause I have Roger and Cynthia too. So I am safe and well taken care of. Now us four (me, Victoria, Roger and Cynthia) will open up Netflix, I will take my candies and we will choose a nice children's movie to watch. Anxiety or not, big changes or not, at the moment it seems, that in our kingdom, all is well. I am well protected and I am loved big time!
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