FOCUS ON JOY
Alright. So here we are. In front of the new. Last post was about me realizing that I am already living my dream life. Big shift in my consciousness. Higher I fly! I have known that the higher level of consciousness is about joy. I have had glimpses of how it feels like, but then there comes a day where I dive into the depths of emotions again, feeling anxiety and frustration. But like I said, something has shifted big time. Ever since this realization that I am living my dream, these lower vibration days has not come anymore. It is like I can not go back into this low energies.
Yesterday me and my crew, Victoria (my higher self), Roger (my ego) and Cynthia (my god fairy), were sitting in a candle light in our current home and we were enjoying our Sunday lazy time. I have just got my new Tarot Card deck and I was very excited to check them out. I was like a kid in a candy store! I just love them so much and it is amazing how the story always unfolds just right. And Cynthia is now reminding me that I have to give myself a credit too about my own intuition and knowing. She means that I can read the cards so well. Thank you lovely Cynthia, you are very correct! I can!
As I was going through the cards, Victoria reminds me about me, when I was a child. She is asking me if I remember how amazing my imagination was? How I created plays, I was singing and also I could always come up with the stories just like that. I tell her that now that you mention this, it is absolutely true!
When we are kids, we are so open and happy. We play, we say things without thinking and without any filters. We feel things and energies a lot. Maybe we see things that an adult can not see. Our imagination is huge and wide open! "Then life happens", says Roger. And this is where Roger gets his tools. He is explaining how he was listening to the adults in my life and how he adapted their point of views of how I should be and behave. This is how he got the tools to actually keep me safe.
He learned how to tell me when I had to be quiet, so that I would not get into more trouble. He was the one who pushed me in work life, so that I could have more success. He was the one who pushed me and kept on pushing me, so that I could fit in more. He really, truly thought that this would be the best for me. He did his level best to protect me from the outside world. His love towards me was so huge and he wanted me to be safe.
Now I can see tears in his eyes. He is so sorry for all these years of pushing me and forcing me to do the things that were against Victoria's guidance. He feels it deep in his being too. But I tell him that I understand. That he has actually done a great job, because I would not be here without him! I wouldn't be so wise and powerful without any of these events. So I hug him, I tell him that I love him deeply and I want him to forgive himself. It is time to do this.
We are a great team now and Roger says that this is true. His job is still keep me safe for sure, but now it is a co-operation with Victoria and Cynthia. And now this whole crew is telling me to focus on joy! This is where the beauty lies.
When we crow up, life gets hard and things start to happen. Not always easy and nice. And so the light of the laughter maybe gets less. I have always had this child like joy inside of me and I have always laugh a lot. As adults our sense of humor sometimes gets twisted and we end up getting our joy in the expense of others. We laugh when someone gets hurt. Or we do nasty prank to someone and we get the laughter out of this. But all this is having a very low vibration. This is "the old". It is also very often that we adults think that if we are having child like fun, we are not being responsible. Victoria is reminding me that this is absolutely not true.
She is telling me to find my joy in innocence. "Like when you were a small girl. Like on Saturday", she says. Oh yeah! We were having our own disco here in the house. We were listening to nice songs and we were dancing and dancing for hours! It was so much fun! How the music can just free your mind so totally!
And then I got my Tarot cards and how I love to play with them. Or if I go out to the woods and I see the beauty of the nature at this time. All the colors and the freshness of the air. Or when I meet a dog. This sincere meeting where they just come to me these days. It is like my energy is pulling them in, because they know. They sense that this one is all about love.
And so my team wants me to focus on joy. Anything and everything that brings me happiness. "This is something that will keep your vibration high", says Cynthia. "Yes, things are starting to move forward this week and this is why you will need your higher perspective on things", continues Victoria. "This is exciting, it is what we have been waiting for, but it also can be overwhelming", says Roger. "But I am here and I got your back", Roger continues.
Whoooh, I think. This is it. This is what I have been "working" towards all these months. Even years. And now it is finally knocking on my door. I feel my heart beating. I feel the excitement. I am happy and scared at the same time. This is big! I feel it in my whole body.
"Trust my whispers", says Victoria. "Keep focusing on joy and keep your vibration high. This is the time where you have to be very conscious about this. We are here and we will go through this transition together. You will know what to do. Trust your wisdom. Trust us."
And so I let go of any control and expectations. Things that are meant to me will flow in as they are supposed to. Even though I am nervous and a bit scared (because again, this is big!), I keep on breathing and for sure, I will keep on focusing on my joy. This is why I came here. To earth. I know I am now, finally, in front of it. And I feel my whole crew giggling beside me. We did it!
Yesterday me and my crew, Victoria (my higher self), Roger (my ego) and Cynthia (my god fairy), were sitting in a candle light in our current home and we were enjoying our Sunday lazy time. I have just got my new Tarot Card deck and I was very excited to check them out. I was like a kid in a candy store! I just love them so much and it is amazing how the story always unfolds just right. And Cynthia is now reminding me that I have to give myself a credit too about my own intuition and knowing. She means that I can read the cards so well. Thank you lovely Cynthia, you are very correct! I can!
As I was going through the cards, Victoria reminds me about me, when I was a child. She is asking me if I remember how amazing my imagination was? How I created plays, I was singing and also I could always come up with the stories just like that. I tell her that now that you mention this, it is absolutely true!
When we are kids, we are so open and happy. We play, we say things without thinking and without any filters. We feel things and energies a lot. Maybe we see things that an adult can not see. Our imagination is huge and wide open! "Then life happens", says Roger. And this is where Roger gets his tools. He is explaining how he was listening to the adults in my life and how he adapted their point of views of how I should be and behave. This is how he got the tools to actually keep me safe.
He learned how to tell me when I had to be quiet, so that I would not get into more trouble. He was the one who pushed me in work life, so that I could have more success. He was the one who pushed me and kept on pushing me, so that I could fit in more. He really, truly thought that this would be the best for me. He did his level best to protect me from the outside world. His love towards me was so huge and he wanted me to be safe.
Now I can see tears in his eyes. He is so sorry for all these years of pushing me and forcing me to do the things that were against Victoria's guidance. He feels it deep in his being too. But I tell him that I understand. That he has actually done a great job, because I would not be here without him! I wouldn't be so wise and powerful without any of these events. So I hug him, I tell him that I love him deeply and I want him to forgive himself. It is time to do this.
We are a great team now and Roger says that this is true. His job is still keep me safe for sure, but now it is a co-operation with Victoria and Cynthia. And now this whole crew is telling me to focus on joy! This is where the beauty lies.
When we crow up, life gets hard and things start to happen. Not always easy and nice. And so the light of the laughter maybe gets less. I have always had this child like joy inside of me and I have always laugh a lot. As adults our sense of humor sometimes gets twisted and we end up getting our joy in the expense of others. We laugh when someone gets hurt. Or we do nasty prank to someone and we get the laughter out of this. But all this is having a very low vibration. This is "the old". It is also very often that we adults think that if we are having child like fun, we are not being responsible. Victoria is reminding me that this is absolutely not true.
She is telling me to find my joy in innocence. "Like when you were a small girl. Like on Saturday", she says. Oh yeah! We were having our own disco here in the house. We were listening to nice songs and we were dancing and dancing for hours! It was so much fun! How the music can just free your mind so totally!
And then I got my Tarot cards and how I love to play with them. Or if I go out to the woods and I see the beauty of the nature at this time. All the colors and the freshness of the air. Or when I meet a dog. This sincere meeting where they just come to me these days. It is like my energy is pulling them in, because they know. They sense that this one is all about love.
And so my team wants me to focus on joy. Anything and everything that brings me happiness. "This is something that will keep your vibration high", says Cynthia. "Yes, things are starting to move forward this week and this is why you will need your higher perspective on things", continues Victoria. "This is exciting, it is what we have been waiting for, but it also can be overwhelming", says Roger. "But I am here and I got your back", Roger continues.
Whoooh, I think. This is it. This is what I have been "working" towards all these months. Even years. And now it is finally knocking on my door. I feel my heart beating. I feel the excitement. I am happy and scared at the same time. This is big! I feel it in my whole body.
"Trust my whispers", says Victoria. "Keep focusing on joy and keep your vibration high. This is the time where you have to be very conscious about this. We are here and we will go through this transition together. You will know what to do. Trust your wisdom. Trust us."
And so I let go of any control and expectations. Things that are meant to me will flow in as they are supposed to. Even though I am nervous and a bit scared (because again, this is big!), I keep on breathing and for sure, I will keep on focusing on my joy. This is why I came here. To earth. I know I am now, finally, in front of it. And I feel my whole crew giggling beside me. We did it!
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