I AM ALREADY LIVING MY DREAM
As you know, I love fairy tails. Maybe you remember the story about the fisherman who was living in the coast of Brazil. Well, since this is my blog, I will transfer this story to Africa, my second home.
So there was a fisherman called Lamin. He was so happy with his everyday life with the small that he had. At least he was able to go to the sea everyday and catch some fish and later he was enjoying the meal with his friends. Lamin is very relaxed, content, outgoing, chill person. No complaining, just enjoying his everyday life.
And then this businessman from Europe, lets call him Patrik, comes for a holiday. He sits with Lamin and wants to join Lamin for a fishing trip. For the whole two weeks these two spend days together. At the end of his holiday Patrik asks Lamin, why he is not doing more marketing, so that he would maybe grow his business much bigger. Since Patrik is a businessman, his aim is to help Lamin to get more customers and this way more money of cause. Patrik says that after a while, you might even have something like five boats!
Lamin is quietly listening to Patrik and allows him to share his point of views. Then he asks a question from Patrik. "So what comes after that? After all this business expansion and money, what comes after that?" "Well, then you can have more free time to do the things that you love to do", answers Patrik. "Isn't that what I am already doing?", asks Lamin.
How many million people are still living their lives from outside in? How many of them are still looking for happiness from outside and never "getting there"? How many million people are still pleasing others and then suffering inside because of that? How many million people are not happy in their current situations: in their jobs, in their relationships, in their work, in their bodies? How many million.... not understanding that there has to be peace in your heart first.
So, today this story came to my mind. Yesterday I wrote about my transformation journey and the process of change that is going on. I was chatting on the phone today with my good friend and she reminded me of this simple truth: YOU ARE ALREADY LIVING YOUR DREAM. For a moment I was quiet, because until today I really did not understand this. I still had this mind of "When I am out of my home town, I will be happy. When I get to do what I love, I will be happy. When I get my dream relationship, I will be happy". But now, suddenly I understand everything. I am finally whole! Everything is already inside of me. Oh my, am I already living my dream?!?!
So I called in my crue, Victoria (my higher self), Cynthia (my god fairy) and Roger (my ego). We decided to have a chat about this revelation I had today. Victoria says to me "isn't it so interesting how through out this awakening journey, we have talked about working from inside out. Changing your inner world, so that you can change your outer world into more supporting, loving and into more authentic. But today, you Saija, were able to understand this all the way in your core". Yes, for sure, I replay. Since I have been under Roger's guidance for so long, it has taken me this long to finally understand what it means when you hear the phrase "Nothing outside of you can make you happy." This is so true!
Roger was the one that, "in the old life", wanted bigger cars, better clothes. He was the one who was asking me to come out in public and share my journey. Okey, maybe Victoria and Cynthia had something to do with this too, so let's not put all the blame on Roger. Roger, I love you :o)!
But all this focus on things outside of me actually never made me truly happy. And now don't get me wrong. Of cause I was happy, but now I am talking about this deep, inner happiness, that is hard to explain, if you have not felt it.
Anyway. Today as my friend was reminding me.... I am truly living my dream life, because nothing outside of me can not define me anymore. Nothing. Now I don't have those limiting fears that used to kept me awake in the night. Fears about the money, fears about not being excepted, fears of not being good enough, fears of not being in control. Fear of not doing enough, the fear of being lazy. Fear of eating correctly. Fear of getting weight. Fear of not having the perfect body, if I don't exercise all the time. Fear of getting wrinkles. Fear of not getting validation from others. Fear of not being liked. And then we have this ancient phrase: "Well, the fact is that we need money in order to survive here". Oh my, how many times I have said that out loud! So many fears. Oh, so many!
Cythia is reminding me, that of cause we all have fears, but the thing is, they are not stopping me anymore. I don't need anyone's approval to create. I don't need likes in Facebook. I don't need anybody's permission and confirmation, if I want to do something. I just do it. I eat what I like. I go out if I want and don't if I don't feel like it. I don't need to post anything anymore to social media unless I truly feel the call. I am happy by myself. Like my friend so wisely said, when I am having a blissful day, it has nothing to do with the outside world. This is very hard to explain. But the joy, the happiness, it just is. I don't need to buy a new sweater for that or please anyone to get it. I am that joy! This is so amazing!
I know now what does it mean to "go with the flow". I know what surrendering means. I am totally detached from everything and everybody. No need to control anything or anyone. No jealousy or fear of getting rejected. I understand this life from a more bigger point of view and I respect everything in this earth and beyond. I don't have not one single judgement in my mind towards anyone or anything. I clearly see now that everything and I mean everything has a reason. I know that we are all connected. I don't do anything I don't want. I only create when I feel the flow, not by force. I don't have to shout out to the world anymore that I am here. No selfies. I accept myself fully without any judgement what so ever. I respect all my talents, wisdom and uniqueness. I fully accept my "bad days" and good days. I don't throw my shit on anyone anymore. I see the beauty of every soul in this earth. But the most biggest thing of all..... I finally, at least in some extend, understand what unconditional love is. It is huge, beautiful and so powering! And now, I am free! I AM FREE!
So, all four of us agree, that it might look like nothing has changed and yet, everything has. But it is all about the inner change. I am already living my dream. Now it is just about enjoying this new, creative freedom that I have. This inner power and knowledge. The joy that now comes out in a good day is something that I have not ever experienced before. It is so amazing!
And here is where we end this story today. Today is surely a very high energy day. I feel dizzy and a bit light headed, but it is all well. I will drink water and get grounded with my home exercise later. But now, I just want to enjoy this huge, powerful feeling: "I HAVE FINALLY CREATED MY DREAM LIFE FOR MYSELF!" What ever comes on top of this, is just a big plus!
So there was a fisherman called Lamin. He was so happy with his everyday life with the small that he had. At least he was able to go to the sea everyday and catch some fish and later he was enjoying the meal with his friends. Lamin is very relaxed, content, outgoing, chill person. No complaining, just enjoying his everyday life.
And then this businessman from Europe, lets call him Patrik, comes for a holiday. He sits with Lamin and wants to join Lamin for a fishing trip. For the whole two weeks these two spend days together. At the end of his holiday Patrik asks Lamin, why he is not doing more marketing, so that he would maybe grow his business much bigger. Since Patrik is a businessman, his aim is to help Lamin to get more customers and this way more money of cause. Patrik says that after a while, you might even have something like five boats!
Lamin is quietly listening to Patrik and allows him to share his point of views. Then he asks a question from Patrik. "So what comes after that? After all this business expansion and money, what comes after that?" "Well, then you can have more free time to do the things that you love to do", answers Patrik. "Isn't that what I am already doing?", asks Lamin.
How many million people are still living their lives from outside in? How many of them are still looking for happiness from outside and never "getting there"? How many million people are still pleasing others and then suffering inside because of that? How many million people are not happy in their current situations: in their jobs, in their relationships, in their work, in their bodies? How many million.... not understanding that there has to be peace in your heart first.
So, today this story came to my mind. Yesterday I wrote about my transformation journey and the process of change that is going on. I was chatting on the phone today with my good friend and she reminded me of this simple truth: YOU ARE ALREADY LIVING YOUR DREAM. For a moment I was quiet, because until today I really did not understand this. I still had this mind of "When I am out of my home town, I will be happy. When I get to do what I love, I will be happy. When I get my dream relationship, I will be happy". But now, suddenly I understand everything. I am finally whole! Everything is already inside of me. Oh my, am I already living my dream?!?!
So I called in my crue, Victoria (my higher self), Cynthia (my god fairy) and Roger (my ego). We decided to have a chat about this revelation I had today. Victoria says to me "isn't it so interesting how through out this awakening journey, we have talked about working from inside out. Changing your inner world, so that you can change your outer world into more supporting, loving and into more authentic. But today, you Saija, were able to understand this all the way in your core". Yes, for sure, I replay. Since I have been under Roger's guidance for so long, it has taken me this long to finally understand what it means when you hear the phrase "Nothing outside of you can make you happy." This is so true!
Roger was the one that, "in the old life", wanted bigger cars, better clothes. He was the one who was asking me to come out in public and share my journey. Okey, maybe Victoria and Cynthia had something to do with this too, so let's not put all the blame on Roger. Roger, I love you :o)!
But all this focus on things outside of me actually never made me truly happy. And now don't get me wrong. Of cause I was happy, but now I am talking about this deep, inner happiness, that is hard to explain, if you have not felt it.
Anyway. Today as my friend was reminding me.... I am truly living my dream life, because nothing outside of me can not define me anymore. Nothing. Now I don't have those limiting fears that used to kept me awake in the night. Fears about the money, fears about not being excepted, fears of not being good enough, fears of not being in control. Fear of not doing enough, the fear of being lazy. Fear of eating correctly. Fear of getting weight. Fear of not having the perfect body, if I don't exercise all the time. Fear of getting wrinkles. Fear of not getting validation from others. Fear of not being liked. And then we have this ancient phrase: "Well, the fact is that we need money in order to survive here". Oh my, how many times I have said that out loud! So many fears. Oh, so many!
Cythia is reminding me, that of cause we all have fears, but the thing is, they are not stopping me anymore. I don't need anyone's approval to create. I don't need likes in Facebook. I don't need anybody's permission and confirmation, if I want to do something. I just do it. I eat what I like. I go out if I want and don't if I don't feel like it. I don't need to post anything anymore to social media unless I truly feel the call. I am happy by myself. Like my friend so wisely said, when I am having a blissful day, it has nothing to do with the outside world. This is very hard to explain. But the joy, the happiness, it just is. I don't need to buy a new sweater for that or please anyone to get it. I am that joy! This is so amazing!
I know now what does it mean to "go with the flow". I know what surrendering means. I am totally detached from everything and everybody. No need to control anything or anyone. No jealousy or fear of getting rejected. I understand this life from a more bigger point of view and I respect everything in this earth and beyond. I don't have not one single judgement in my mind towards anyone or anything. I clearly see now that everything and I mean everything has a reason. I know that we are all connected. I don't do anything I don't want. I only create when I feel the flow, not by force. I don't have to shout out to the world anymore that I am here. No selfies. I accept myself fully without any judgement what so ever. I respect all my talents, wisdom and uniqueness. I fully accept my "bad days" and good days. I don't throw my shit on anyone anymore. I see the beauty of every soul in this earth. But the most biggest thing of all..... I finally, at least in some extend, understand what unconditional love is. It is huge, beautiful and so powering! And now, I am free! I AM FREE!
So, all four of us agree, that it might look like nothing has changed and yet, everything has. But it is all about the inner change. I am already living my dream. Now it is just about enjoying this new, creative freedom that I have. This inner power and knowledge. The joy that now comes out in a good day is something that I have not ever experienced before. It is so amazing!
And here is where we end this story today. Today is surely a very high energy day. I feel dizzy and a bit light headed, but it is all well. I will drink water and get grounded with my home exercise later. But now, I just want to enjoy this huge, powerful feeling: "I HAVE FINALLY CREATED MY DREAM LIFE FOR MYSELF!" What ever comes on top of this, is just a big plus!
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