TIME TO COME OUT AND PLAY

For the longest time I have needed to be by myself. Get quiet. Listen. Learn more about me. Who I truly am. This is a person I am just getting to know and this process is not over yet. Today me and Victoria (my higher self) had a chat. The day has been very very intense and I wanted to ask her, why this is so. Haven't I done enough inner cleansing already? What is still left for me to do? Why am I feeling this fatigue and lack of interest for everything? Where is my joy?! After all this inner work, shouldn't I finally see some results in my inner state of being?

Victoria is a bit quiet first. She reminds me that she loves me and how she is admiring all the work I have done. It hasn't been easy. "It has been hard, because the energies of the collective are now so intense. A lot of old is been cleansed away and this happens through the people who are aware. It is the only way to do this. Other people will see the results too, but they don't have to go so deep, thanks to you light beings, who are doing their work for them. We all have challenges in our lives, but others don't probably don't have to go through years of cleansing, because you are already doing it."

"Oh wau", I replay. "But this is big then. No wonder I have been tired and I have been wanting to be by myself". "Well, there is more in this of cause. It is not that simple", she says. "You also have been hiding, haven't you love", she asks. I am not sure what she means, so I am curious to know more.

"You have learned so much in this journey, haven't you love? It is in your essence to share your story, this is one of the reasons you came to this earth. Not to do what others are doing, but to do you. Lately you have been quiet. No writing, no sharing. And love, don't get me wrong. This has absolutely been needed! You have needed all this time for yourself to discover the new you. This is something that you have to do by yourself. In your own pace and in your own way. Now, I feel, that you are ready to come out and play".

What? What does this mean?

"Let me explain this to you love", she says. "As long as you are hiding and not sharing with the world who you are and the things that need to be shared, you feel anxiety. It is like this huge tornado that just keeps going round and round without an ending. In the same place, stuck in the same thoughts and emotions. Can I give you an example?

Lets say that you are boiling water. What happens when the water starts to boil, but you are not lifting the cover? Well, we all know that the pressure in that cattle is growing and growing until the water will find it's way out of the cattle and out of that pressure. Either someone comes and puts out the stove and takes of the cover or the water will, for sure, boil all over the stove.

This is little bit what has been going on with you. Creativity is an energy that needs to flow. If it is not flowing, it will cause a huge amount of pressure to the one who is not listening to the call of creative energy. It needs to get out somehow and somewhere. Lately you have had the need to be by yourself and you have been hiding too, isn't it true? Well, we love need to be seen and our voice have to be heard. Isn't it true that when you write or sing, you feel alive and joy? Well, it is just time to come out and play!"

"But I am scared", I say. People have not understood this process and it's been hard. I don't feel like I am appreciated and excepted. I have become visible to me, but I don't care if no one sees me ever again", I continue.

"Love, I understand this very well. And you have to come out only when you are ready. I just feel that you are. You need to face this fear of coming out as "the new you". You have so much knowledge now about human nature. First hand information. And it is not even about that. If you share, you share because it makes you feel good and because it is important to you. You also keep the energy of creation moving and this way it will not accumulate inside of you. You got this! I know you do!"

I am listening to her words and I realize that it is true. Deep deep inside of me there has still been this slight tail of fear on how others see me. But Victoria is right. It doesn't matter anymore. After all, I am the one who has to keep me happy, no one else. And I love to play! I love to create!

"Your cleansing is done. Trust me", says Victoria. Now what you are feeling are the collective energies and feeling them gets easier, when you start to create again. It will be easier when you let yourself to be fully seen as who you are. Hiding by yourself is not the thing you should do anymore. Only by coming out and play, you will make this easier for you. You have absolutely nothing to fear. We (meaning my guides, Cythia and Roger of cause) are here for you all the time. At your service 24/7".

She adds "don't think about this too much, just as long as you start to do something. Anything. And allow it to change as the energies are changing so fast. Today you might feel like this, and then next day like that. This is okey. Again, just do you".

She is right. I know. No need to change anyone. No need to lecture or share quotes. No need to safe anyone or tell anyone how to live their lives. This is again, as all in my life, about me. Just sharing my story and creativity in any way I see fit to me. And on the topics that are important to me. That's all. No more hiding. It is surely time to come out and play again.