INNER MAGIC!

This week has been interesting! I have felt this push forward and yet something is holding me back. All this is happening inside. I am so done with even the word “healing” and I am just so ready to leave this part of my inner journey behind me. I really don’t care anymore who did what to whom and I don’t feel like “diving deep” or even meditating!

Growing and learning never ends, but I really don’t want to concentrate on past hurt and pain anymore. It feels very boring and heavy to me. My wounds are healed now and I have been able to re-activate my own natural inner system into a new way of living. Now everything happens in my own timetable that is suitable for my soul and my body. 

But something in me has been holding on to the past. I have felt that this is energy, not people and I also have known that I can not clear this energy all by myself. And that’s why there has been this inner conflict inside. I am ready to move on and truly leave the past behind, but I needed help!

And as we know, the universe works in mysterious ways!

We have a small, amazing crystal shop here in my home town and this beautiful lady working there also does energy healing sessions. I have visited this place every now and then, because to be honest, I feel very at peace there and as I have been chatting with this beautiful lady, I feel heard and understood. I feel that the energy here supports my being. 

On Wednesday I went there and we ended up chatting. Suddenly I hear myself asking her, if she could do an energy healing session. I just don’t have money for it now. So is it possible that I could do some work for her or something in exchange? Oh my! I have never done anything like this before! And for sure never to a person I have only met a few times! But there is just something so “home like” in her energy. I didn't have any expectations on this, nor did I put any pressure on her. I had only trust and faith.

To my surprise she was very open to the idea and we exchanged numbers. We both agreed that we will know when the time is right to do this. I did have a feeling that it, for some reason, would be good, if we could do it this week. But it is so amazing when you are dealing with someone who lives the same way as you. In a flow, trusting, instead of forcing and controlling. We both trusted in divine timing. 

On Friday I got a text and I was so happy. But Roger (my ego) was not. He knew something very cool was about to happen and he always resists at first. We agreed that I would go and help her with her new house and after that we would do energy healing. 

On Saturday I drove there and wow! The place was beautiful! There was just something so very soothing and nurturing there. Wild and yet very calming. Nature everywhere and no people around. Totally isolated paradise and yet close to town. Roger was nagging in my ear the whole morning and the whole drive. Not wanting to do this at all. But because Victoria (my soul) is gently guiding our team, we allow Roger to nag and yet, we follow her guidance. 

We ended up cleaning the sauna and shower room, had some lunch and after we were ready for the energy healing. Oh my! I think we can call it energy release treatment! So much old and heavy energy was taken off of me and I could feel this tingling on my skin as she was clearing these energies. My hair was up and I felt this lightness growing in my body. I even felt dizzy at times!  

After the treatment, I jumped into my car and left. I was so happy! I loved the place, the whole family, the energy there, the treatment, everything! I really truly honestly haven’t felt this kind of alignment for a very long time! I felt like I had been in heaven! I was so relaxed the whole evening!

And today, as I was laying on my sofa relaxing, I just closed my eyes. I was thinking I am gonna take a nap, but as I closed my eyes, Victoria took my hand and she guided me into this place inside of me that I have never ever been or connected with before. Pure magic! That is all I can say! I felt for the first time that I am magic! I have magic inside of me! Since all the old and heavy energy was cleared yesterday, I now had access to my true being! 

I don’t know how to describe it, but have you ever heard stories about near death experiences? How they see lights and there is this space that just feels full! Full of colours, unconditional love, sparkle. I got to experience this space inside of me today! Wow!

Wow, wow and wow again! Now all I have to do is close my eyes and I am back there! Wow! 

This is the magic of inner journey. I just need to let it happen at its own pace. Phase by phase. I can’t rush it or make it go faster. My body is not a machine, nor could my mind take it, if the pace would be too fast. I had to find my own rhythm of healing.

To Roger, any happening that is not visible, is a waste of time. He wants tangible changes. Changes that he can see. But Victoria is the one, who has been keeping us still in one place all this time. She has known where our concentration must go at this time. In silence all these changes have been happening inside of me. In rest, in solitude, in isolation. 

And finally I got to feel and experience my own inner magic world! Wow!