BEING IN SERVICE

I woke up today and as I was making my coffee I heard a message coming through: “What if you didn’t heal yourself to “serve” others, but for you to create a new, exciting life with more genuine joy?” My soul (Victoria) always does this. Her messages (my insights) come out of the blue in the most weird moments. 

This morning I really needed to break this limiting belief. A box that I had put myself into. 

What does it mean “to serve others”? Really? Is there only this one way that my limited mind could imagine and how others are doing it? Establish a Y-Tube channel? Instagram account? Being a “spiritual teacher” or “coach”? 

For a long time this idea has made me feel quite heavy, if I am totally honest. It doesn’t make my heart sing. I am interested in other peoples stories, but I am not interested in helping them in their healing journeys. I don’t feel like going back to my past and sharing it anymore.I am very okay with all of the happenings until now and I don’t have any need to keep going back there over and over again.  

I am not looking for heaviness in this new life of mine, but lightness, simplicity, easiness, joy. Something that makes my heart and soul sing. So why am I then thinking “I must be at service and help others to heal”? Somewhere along this healing journey I heard someone say: “heal, so you can help others”. And there it was. New belief was created inside of me. 

This morning I have totally thrown this idea to the Universes! I DON’T FREAKING HAVE TO, IF I DON’T WANT TO! As I let go of this, I feel such a load taken off my shoulders and it feels amazing!  

All is energy, right? As I heal, my own individual energy gets lighter and lighter. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have light days everyday. Absolutely not! But, it does mean that I FEEL the heaviness, I don’t become it anymore. So, my individual energy stays light. 

This was a good one! I took my coffee and sat down with this. What does this really mean to me, because as soon as I heard this, I felt so light. 

As I am learning to only listen to myself and to become my unique self, I am faced with all kinds of beliefs that I have taken within me from outside sources. Mostly from the spiritual teachers, since this is an important topic to me. Now I am pulling out all these beliefs that I thought are true to me, as they are for them. I am transforming from group thinking to my unique life signature. 

So, I have had this belief that since I actually went through the healing journey, not reading about it from a book and I actually experienced its ups and downs, my new phase in life would  “be in service to humanity”. How many times have I heard “share your story and this way you help others”. How conditioned are we to “serve others”? Are we selfish if we don’t?

This individual lightness changes the collective energy a little bit lighter. So does each and every soul that has the courage to heal themselves. Now, we know that “the old and heavy” energies are for example business, manipulation, control, planning, disrespect, masks, numbness, conditional love, lying, gossiping, irresponsible behavior, addictions and so on. As I heal, all of this heaviness clears away. As a healed person I can not be anything else than authentic, real, honest (and so much more) and have a unique soul path. 

The idea that we have to be at service to others is another conditioning and now I am throwing this to the Universes too! Well actually, hold on. Let’s not throw it away, but let me tell you how I see it now after this morning revelation. 

If joy and laughter have a high vibe, then am I not “in service”, if I create my life from now on to these values? Am I not the best gift ever to humanity, if I am genuinely enjoying my life and truly love whatever I am going to create and the process of creating? TOTALLY!

My conclusion is that we all are always in service to humanity. One way or another. Each and everyone in our unique ways. For me, I thought, there was only one way to do it, but this idea is now gone! 

I don’t have a glue on what my creative life will look like or what it is I want to create. But I do know (at least in this moment) what it will not be: a long, hard process where I try to collect followers, build my “business” and keep it going forever even if I’m already burnout under it. No. For me there can not be any goals to achieve. I create this, BOOM, it's gone and the next one comes when it comes. Fast, simple, easy and fun! Here the idea came, loved and enjoyed the process and there it goes. Free as a bird! Not sticking or clinging into anything. 

So, I am in service in my unique way all the time. Let things, even creations, flow! Let them flow!