BODY GETTING REWIRED

Lately I have been having quite intense days. My body is having pains that I have never experienced before. I have aces and pains here and there. At the same time I am feeling tired, bored, no creative flow, nothing feels nothing, even symptoms of depression. I feel anxiety and I am crying a lot. I have this feeling of not belonging to this world. And then suddenly, next day, I am at the top of my game!

Yesterday I saw this video of Lorie Ladd (link: Internal shifts) and it just gave me so much understanding about the prosess that I am going through. I have to call Victoria (my higher self) and Roger (my ego) to this talk about this!

"Hi love", says Victoria. "So nice to be here to talk about this. This is very very important!"

I agree. 

"So what's going on?", she asks. 

Well, I explain to her what I have been feeling lately and about the video I saw. I have known that I am clearing a lot of old memories from my body, but this video gave me so much yesterday. Victoria starts to smile. 

"I just absolutely love this", she says. "Have you noticed how hard you still have been to yourself?", she asks. 

I have to admit that I see it now. I always, still, expect myself to be productive and active and if at that day, I can't, I just can't seem to give myself a break. 

"And compassion is just what you need", she says. "So share with us what you learned yesterday", she says. 

So, what Lorie was explaining was that all the experiences that we have had in life, are all found in our bodies. As I shift into higher energy, my body must release all the old and dence out. This means all the bulling, heartaces, disappointments, all the hurt, I have experienced in my life and the emotions related to these events. All the emotions that I couldn't go through at the time when these things happenned to me. All these feelings are stored in my body and now, they are all coming out. All the feelings I have hidden or not been able to face, because I didn't know how. And because I am so willing to be free from the old and getting in touch with my true essence, they are now surficing, so that I can feel them fully and this way, I am able to let them go for good.

"Oh, this is so beautiful", says Victoria. "Isn't it amazing how wise the soul is! It just takes you through everything, you are supposed to, so that you can be totally free. Not only in your mind, but in your body too! I absolutely love it!"

Roger has been listening and he is nodding his head. "With this, I agree. It is absolutely amazing! I know that my job before was to keep us in the old, because that was the only way I knew how to keep us safe. But even me, I am getting used to this new way of living now, so I am practicing it fully. How to trust more, how to trust you Victoria more, how to let go of control more and how to allow all the feelings to just be without trying to get us out of it anymore, like I used to do."

We all agree. We are learning so much each day and thank god we have people like Lorie who are helping everyone to understand what is happening. 

"You are just emptying yourself totally from the old, what ever it is. Let it be emotions you haven't felt years ago or the memories of events that happened to you long time ago. You are healing your scars so to say. But not only this, you are also feeling the collective energy, so like I said at the beginning, this is a time to learn how to be very mercyfull towards oneself."

Yes, as I let go all this heaviness from my body, the more I also feel the collective energy. It is a lot to the body. And mind. 

"So can we agree, that we will try to be more forgiving towards ourselves and have more compassion too?", asks Victoria.

Me and Roger nod to agree. I have always been so alone in a way, in life that I really haven't had a change to show compassion towards myself. If I was not doing and holding, then who? But now I am willing to learn, for sure! If I expect compassion from others, I have to show it to myself first, right?

"The energy of the earth is chancing so quickly that it is hard for the body to adjust. So compassion is very much needed. We don't have to be productive or active all the time, because to be honest, energetically, we are! 24/7! Energetic work is going on all the time and sometimes just being and allowing yourself to relax and just be, is a must. There is nothing wrong in this", says Victoria.

Well, I am getting quite good also in "just being". I don't force myself that much anymore, because my only goal at this time, is to feel, what I have not felt, to release what I have not released and after, feel lighter. My goal is to get back home to me, into that time, before the world got to me with it's beliefs, fears and events. So I am willing to do what ever it takes!

"Good for you love!", shout Victoria and Roger. "You are so very brave, we love you so much!"

I love you too guys, I shout! And like Lorie said, could I be graterful for these intense days, because it means that after, I am more closer to my true self, closer to my inner fire and my true nature. Closer to my creativity too. I guess I have to be fully empty from the old, in order to create something new. 

And this to me, is very very exciting!