I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING

As I go on in my inner journey, the less I know. Many people have asked me why I don't do coaching or something like that, but I have to say that I gave up on other peoples journeys long time ago. Let me explain.

My heart and soul has always seen other peoples potential very clearly. I can see how much more they could do, if they would see and believe it themselves. But, as I have I moved along in my own inner journey, the respect toward other peoples inner journeys has grown a lot. I don't want to interfere in it in any way. The only one who can know what they are ready for and how much crowth they want to experience in this lifetime, is a person themself. 

It is non of my business what others do or don't do. It is non of my business do they see their full potential or not. Where each of us are in this journey called life, it is just perfect. And we make the choise to grow or we repeat our old stories. We can choose to heal or not. Both are equaly fine. For sure, I don't know what is best for them. My only job is to know what is best for me and if some people vibe with me, great! If not, that is okey too. 

For me it has come time to let go of all the spiritual teachings and only focus on my own inner messages. My own truth. No one else can not know it, but me. So it is with others. Only they can discover their own truth in each moment. 

The problem is that we tend to listen to others, to our spiritual teachers and then we think that what they teach, is our truth. Again we humans have found a way to put us all in the same box and for me, this is not working. How we heal and how we live are very unique paths for each of us. This is how it should be. I don't need to be a coach, because there are so many teachers in the spiritual sceen already. I actually don't believe in teaching anymore, meaning somones experience is the ultimate truth, but I do believe in sharing. We can learn a lot from someone elses journey. 

I want to be fully free, standing in my own truth authenticaly. I am the type of person that always questions everything. Even myself. How does this feel inside of me? Does it resonate with my inner being? This is how I know, if something is for me or not. 

I don't resonate with quotes like "be grateful for what you have" anymore at all! What a fear based bull shit! Some of these spiritual teachings are like a mental rape and very old! We are humans and as humans we are allowed to have "good days and shitty days". This is normal. I could never ever force myself to "think positive", if I don't truly feel it. Same goes with "your thoughts create your reality". Fuck I hate that frase, but respect the people whose truth that is. Mine it certainly is not. My truth is that what ever is meant for you, will find you no matter what.

Some of these fraces cause us to bypass our deepest emotions and lead us to only focus on the "love and light". This is not my truth. I have learned to love all parts of myself. Even the deepest and darkest parts. Those parts are part of me and I love them as much as I love my laughter and joy. I respect all aspects of me fully. 

We are not meant to be super humans. We are meant to be humans. Period. For me, it is enough that I try to do better, that I do take responsibility of my words and actions and I try to learn from my mistakes. Sometimes this inner journey is so very exhausting and life can not only focus on this. We need to remember to live too!

These days I am very okey to "not to know". It is actually a relief in a way to focus on myself instead of others. I am very aware that I have taken the role of a mother and a coach in my past relationships. Now, I have learned from this. No more. 

I can finally see people where they are in their journeys and respect that. No need to coach or change anything. They are doing their best and they are crowing in their own pace. This is how it should be. 

So I can not know what is best for others and instead I am focusing on my own truth. I am hear to listen, to be present when needed, but I try not to give advices anymore. Unless is asked of me. This is a new practise to me, but at least I am willing to learn. 

It has been another practise to get to the point where I can say "I don't know anything". I truly don't. I learn as I go. Today I feel like this, tomorrow.... Who knows. What I do know are my core values:

1. Freedom

2. Unconditionaly loving

3. Respectful

4. Integrity

5. Honest

6. Authentic

What life is going to bring to me, is a mistery. I don't know a thing! 

I just know that it is time to allow and respect all souls in their own journey. We are different! We are all here for a reason! We all have a purpose! No one is better then other no matter what. 

My only consern has to be me. I have to take care of me and see what fits into my world and what does not. This doesn't mean that I don't love people, because I do. Sometimes it is just necessary to do it from a far. Not only am I respecting myself by doing this, but I am also respecting the other persons journey by not demanding more of them that they are capable of right now. 

What is my mission in this world, I feel like I am doing it. For some reason I was supposed to awaken fully in this lifetime. I did not expect my journey to go so deep and sometimes I wish I could have a holiday from this. It is so fucking hard and intense sometimes. But this is my journey and no one else has to understand it. No one, only me. My life journey doesn't have to make sense to anyone, but me. 

And this is now what I allow to others too. Their journey doesn't have to make any sense to me or to anyone else. It is theirs and there fore just as unique as mine. As I respect my own journey, I respect theirs. No matter what it looks like. 

So I don't know anything. Life is a mystery and no one knows what is the absolute truth and why we are here. But, if you get to know your truth in this moment and allow others to do the same, that is a lot already!