NEW LIFE, NEW REALITY
So here we are. In a new adventure. I came to Africa almost a month ago. As I told in my last post, Roger (my ego) was really resisting this. But now as we are here, he is more calm and addapting to our situation very well. He is still trying to come up with the old statements, but me and Victoria (my higher self) are handlening them quite well. We allow him to talk, but we are not paying that much attention to them.
For the first weeks here, I felt like a turist. I was living in a turist area and hanging around places and people I have known for years. I knew this before coming. I knew that I needed to go through some old shit, as I had done in Finland. And so I was not surpriced about the events that were going on. Some people left, some stayed. Some situations were the ones I wanted to pull myself away from. I met old people from my past and I met some new ones. I had this inner knowing (Victoria's wispers), that it was meant to be like this. At the same time I also knew, that something new wants to enter.
I was dancing and laughing a lot. Very quickly my body started to shape back to normal. I enjoyed the sosial activity around me after being so isolated and alone in Finland. If I needed "me time", I took it, but if I wanted company, it was always around. I absolutely loved it! No time to think too much for once!
I did my yoga in the small space I was having or I went to the beach to train. I visited nice places with good food, nice talks and with good company. I loved my turist life!
Then we started to hear these news about the virus. Game changer!
What I did not expect was the panic and the change that this virus was bringing along. I hear that in Europe the situation is quite hard, but at least for now, things here in Africa, are quite calm. I wanted to ask Victoria about this virus. It seems, that even Roger can not get into this panic mode even though the news are full of this virus.
"Love, this virus is meant to be. The earth can not take the actions of humans anymore. She is tired of the way people are treating her. And each other. Only by stopping everything fully, humans are able to stop running away from things they need to face in their life's. How we treat each other, how money has been running the world for too long, how big is the cap between poor and rich and so on. This is a huge wake up call for the whole humanity! The selfishness has gone too far. It is just time to stop and reflect. This is how the Universe works. It is like she is the mother who is watching her children playing and she does have patience as a parent. She has given her children multitable changes to learn and do thing differently, but unfortunately, her children were not able to do this on their own. So tough love was needed. Boundaries. Stillness", says Victoria.
"But it feels like it is a punishment", I say.
"Oh no, not at all! This is like parenting any child. There must be some boundaries always. How else can we learn to respect others, to consider others and so on. This is not for sure a punishment, but a lesson. Like in school. Let's say that you want to learn a new language. You start with basics, right? Same goes here. Humanity has gone so far from basic, that it is just time to stop and pause. Unlearn the ways that are not working, go inside one self and from that space, learn new ways of being. Go back a bit and remind ourselves what does it mean to be a human. Money, tittles and material things don't matter. Humanity has forgotten this. So we need a pause. Because in the future, there will be technologies that we are not yet aware of. There will be new creations, but they are not activated yet. First we need to stop and pause and as I said, reflect."
"I also want to remind you that this is a perfect example of fear based energy. It is quite amazing to see how much power the media has on people. What if we didn't have internet? What if we didn't have sosial media? This virus could have not ever have so much power over people without the fear. This virus could not grow in love energy. This is a perfect example of people listening others instead of turning inwards and in their inner power. This is one of the lessons of this virus. Panic can only spread when it has energy. Without fear, this virus would have had been just another flu that is going around and it wouldn't have had this power over people. The fact that you are not going with this panic flow doesn't mean you are not aware. It means, that you are not willing to give any energy to this virus for it to survive."
This is so interesting to me. I remember how at the end of last year, I felt like something big is "cooking" under the surface. I could not put my finger on it, but I knew it is big. And here we are. With this virus. What it will bring and how thing will unfold, no one knows yet. Here is a change to learn "living in a moment" life, because at the end, that is all we have. Now. We are at the door of "new earth". How exciting!
Anyway, enough about the virus! Me and my crew, well, we have had fun! It is amazing to find out how fast the new ways of being becomes normal. Even though Roger keeps bringing up some old stuff, like money issues, this new energy doesn't allow them linger upon us that long. To be very honest, I am so happy now that I have done my inner job and I am now in a peacefull and happy place!
"And love, you were doing your inner cleansing willingly. This was a big benefit to you. Resisting "what is" only makes things harder", says Victoria. Oh yes, I agree!
So I have let go of people and places here too. In my second home. It was meant to be like this. But a week ago, I moved into a new house, in a new invironment. I have people around me that love me, accept me and support me, no matter what. I don't think I have ever been loved this way. Roles, age or tittles don't matter. I matter, meaning my soul matters. This is such amazing feeling! This unconditional love allows me to open up fully. Until now, it hasn't been safe to be vulnerable and open. It hasn't been safe to show all sides of me. So this is my practise now. To be open. To be vulnerable. To be me, fully.
And the funny thing is, that now, as I am loved unconditionally, there are not so many things coming up. When you are in a safe invironment, there is no need to fight or argue. No need to control or think too much. When you are in a free space, it is easy to flow with life. You can express your thoughts and needs without being judged. You can take your space when you need it. You can talk about all things in this Universe without anyone saying "you are weird". Everything is so natural!
So I am now in my own bubble here in Africa. I am very aware what is going on in the outside world, but I can not get on board to the fear and panic that people are feeling. I am okey with everything. Even if it means I am meant to die to this virus. Then so be it. But to be honest, I don't think I will. I feel like I am in front of something new. That for me this is just the beginning..... Of new life with new ways. I knew all along that March is going to be "shedding the old skin". This meant that all the fears that were underneath, had to come to the surface to be releaced. I bless this!
Now I am able to thank myself and my crew for all the things we have learned these past few years. How to just be. How not to control. How to go with the flow. How to trust. How to relax and have faith in any situation. Now all these lessons have become handy. It is no coincidence that I was not able to find a job to distract my learning process. No wonder that no gym or dancing lesson was pulling me. I needed to learn all these new ways of being by myself through isolation.
"We are so proud of you honey", says Victoria. "Yes love, we are", says Roger. Victoria comes to sit on my left side and takes me in to her arms, Roger comes to the right side and puts his hands around me too. And here we sit, in peace and quiet. Cynthia (my god fairy) is flying above us with a big smile on her face. I feel safe. I feel loved. I can finally be myself fully. Without any roles, without any expectations, without any pressure for doing.
How many times I thought I knew what freedom is. Well, I didn't. How many times I thought that I was in front of something new. I wasn't.
For me, right now, every day is new. Even if I am doing things that I have done for years, it still feels like new. It is like my eyes are finally fully open. Roger still wants me to think about the future, but I trust the flow. What ever I am meant to do here, it will come to me when the time is right. Right now, I just want to enjoy my bubble a little while longer.
For the first weeks here, I felt like a turist. I was living in a turist area and hanging around places and people I have known for years. I knew this before coming. I knew that I needed to go through some old shit, as I had done in Finland. And so I was not surpriced about the events that were going on. Some people left, some stayed. Some situations were the ones I wanted to pull myself away from. I met old people from my past and I met some new ones. I had this inner knowing (Victoria's wispers), that it was meant to be like this. At the same time I also knew, that something new wants to enter.
I was dancing and laughing a lot. Very quickly my body started to shape back to normal. I enjoyed the sosial activity around me after being so isolated and alone in Finland. If I needed "me time", I took it, but if I wanted company, it was always around. I absolutely loved it! No time to think too much for once!
I did my yoga in the small space I was having or I went to the beach to train. I visited nice places with good food, nice talks and with good company. I loved my turist life!
Then we started to hear these news about the virus. Game changer!
What I did not expect was the panic and the change that this virus was bringing along. I hear that in Europe the situation is quite hard, but at least for now, things here in Africa, are quite calm. I wanted to ask Victoria about this virus. It seems, that even Roger can not get into this panic mode even though the news are full of this virus.
"Love, this virus is meant to be. The earth can not take the actions of humans anymore. She is tired of the way people are treating her. And each other. Only by stopping everything fully, humans are able to stop running away from things they need to face in their life's. How we treat each other, how money has been running the world for too long, how big is the cap between poor and rich and so on. This is a huge wake up call for the whole humanity! The selfishness has gone too far. It is just time to stop and reflect. This is how the Universe works. It is like she is the mother who is watching her children playing and she does have patience as a parent. She has given her children multitable changes to learn and do thing differently, but unfortunately, her children were not able to do this on their own. So tough love was needed. Boundaries. Stillness", says Victoria.
"But it feels like it is a punishment", I say.
"Oh no, not at all! This is like parenting any child. There must be some boundaries always. How else can we learn to respect others, to consider others and so on. This is not for sure a punishment, but a lesson. Like in school. Let's say that you want to learn a new language. You start with basics, right? Same goes here. Humanity has gone so far from basic, that it is just time to stop and pause. Unlearn the ways that are not working, go inside one self and from that space, learn new ways of being. Go back a bit and remind ourselves what does it mean to be a human. Money, tittles and material things don't matter. Humanity has forgotten this. So we need a pause. Because in the future, there will be technologies that we are not yet aware of. There will be new creations, but they are not activated yet. First we need to stop and pause and as I said, reflect."
"I also want to remind you that this is a perfect example of fear based energy. It is quite amazing to see how much power the media has on people. What if we didn't have internet? What if we didn't have sosial media? This virus could have not ever have so much power over people without the fear. This virus could not grow in love energy. This is a perfect example of people listening others instead of turning inwards and in their inner power. This is one of the lessons of this virus. Panic can only spread when it has energy. Without fear, this virus would have had been just another flu that is going around and it wouldn't have had this power over people. The fact that you are not going with this panic flow doesn't mean you are not aware. It means, that you are not willing to give any energy to this virus for it to survive."
This is so interesting to me. I remember how at the end of last year, I felt like something big is "cooking" under the surface. I could not put my finger on it, but I knew it is big. And here we are. With this virus. What it will bring and how thing will unfold, no one knows yet. Here is a change to learn "living in a moment" life, because at the end, that is all we have. Now. We are at the door of "new earth". How exciting!
Anyway, enough about the virus! Me and my crew, well, we have had fun! It is amazing to find out how fast the new ways of being becomes normal. Even though Roger keeps bringing up some old stuff, like money issues, this new energy doesn't allow them linger upon us that long. To be very honest, I am so happy now that I have done my inner job and I am now in a peacefull and happy place!
"And love, you were doing your inner cleansing willingly. This was a big benefit to you. Resisting "what is" only makes things harder", says Victoria. Oh yes, I agree!
So I have let go of people and places here too. In my second home. It was meant to be like this. But a week ago, I moved into a new house, in a new invironment. I have people around me that love me, accept me and support me, no matter what. I don't think I have ever been loved this way. Roles, age or tittles don't matter. I matter, meaning my soul matters. This is such amazing feeling! This unconditional love allows me to open up fully. Until now, it hasn't been safe to be vulnerable and open. It hasn't been safe to show all sides of me. So this is my practise now. To be open. To be vulnerable. To be me, fully.
And the funny thing is, that now, as I am loved unconditionally, there are not so many things coming up. When you are in a safe invironment, there is no need to fight or argue. No need to control or think too much. When you are in a free space, it is easy to flow with life. You can express your thoughts and needs without being judged. You can take your space when you need it. You can talk about all things in this Universe without anyone saying "you are weird". Everything is so natural!
So I am now in my own bubble here in Africa. I am very aware what is going on in the outside world, but I can not get on board to the fear and panic that people are feeling. I am okey with everything. Even if it means I am meant to die to this virus. Then so be it. But to be honest, I don't think I will. I feel like I am in front of something new. That for me this is just the beginning..... Of new life with new ways. I knew all along that March is going to be "shedding the old skin". This meant that all the fears that were underneath, had to come to the surface to be releaced. I bless this!
Now I am able to thank myself and my crew for all the things we have learned these past few years. How to just be. How not to control. How to go with the flow. How to trust. How to relax and have faith in any situation. Now all these lessons have become handy. It is no coincidence that I was not able to find a job to distract my learning process. No wonder that no gym or dancing lesson was pulling me. I needed to learn all these new ways of being by myself through isolation.
"We are so proud of you honey", says Victoria. "Yes love, we are", says Roger. Victoria comes to sit on my left side and takes me in to her arms, Roger comes to the right side and puts his hands around me too. And here we sit, in peace and quiet. Cynthia (my god fairy) is flying above us with a big smile on her face. I feel safe. I feel loved. I can finally be myself fully. Without any roles, without any expectations, without any pressure for doing.
How many times I thought I knew what freedom is. Well, I didn't. How many times I thought that I was in front of something new. I wasn't.
For me, right now, every day is new. Even if I am doing things that I have done for years, it still feels like new. It is like my eyes are finally fully open. Roger still wants me to think about the future, but I trust the flow. What ever I am meant to do here, it will come to me when the time is right. Right now, I just want to enjoy my bubble a little while longer.
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